2012 愿望

在2011的最后一天我想在这里稍微写写我2011的收获。

2011五月我毕业了！淡马锡理工学院毕业了。三年的时间一转眼就过了。觉得自己长大了不少。拥有神的眷顾，我顺利的踏上大学的旅程。之前还很担心没办法交到朋友但我错咯。现在有一堆跟我好得不得了的朋友！哈哈！让我不禁想大笑。

今年的生日过得很快乐。有一班猪朋狗友为我庆祝，不知不觉增肥了！很高兴在这一年里收到不少的生日祝福。还有经过了很多事情我了解原来自己其实什么都还不懂。一直都还是一个温室里的花。一朵需要妈妈爸爸在生边的小花。以往我会想要长大但现在只想一辈子依偎在妈妈生边。亲情是多么的重要啊。另外是爱情。我不想想得太复杂。我会做回我自己，一个乐天派的人！

神啊，2012年的来临对我是多么的重要。我希望世界和平，希望每个人能找到他们心中的快乐，希望我身边的每一个人可以无忧无虑的生活。另外我还想自私的希望我的愿望全都能实现！谢谢你！

WICKED - The Untold Story of Witches of Oz

After the dinner on Christmas Eve, we went to the theater directly opposite Pizzeria Mozza!

I have never enjoyed musical this much before partly because this is the first I watched. LOLs. Anyway, the musical titled "WICKED the untold story of the witches of Oz." its it a Broadway Musical that is known as the next best musical after Phantom of The Opera.


Short Synopsis of WICKED:

WICKED relates the untold story of the Witches of Oz. Long before Dorothy dropped in, two other girls meet in the land of Oz. One, born with emerald green skin is smart, fiery and misunderstood. The other is beautiful, ambitious and very popular. WICKED tells the story of their remarkable odyssey, how these two unlikely friends grow to become the Wicked Witch of the West and Glinda the Good Witch. WICKED, the untold story of the witches of Oz, features music and lyrics by Stephen Schwartz (Godspell, Pippin, Academy Award winner for Pocahontas and The Prince of Egypt) and book by Winnie Holzman ("My So Called Life," "Once And Again" and "thirtysomething"), and is based on the best-selling novel by Gregory Maguire. With musical staging by Tony Award winner Wayne Cilento (Aida, The Who's Tommy, How To Succeed...), WICKED is directed by 2003 and 2004 Tony Award winner Joe Mantello (Assassins, Take Me Out, Frankie & Johnny in the Clair de Lune).

The band hidden underneath the stage was simply too awesome! The way they synchronize the music with the actor's actions. I just can't believe how my ears and eyes are loving it. Till now, I still haven't recover from this wonderful experience.

Here are the evidences that I really went!The Picture on the left is ChunSiong holding the ticket. He die die also don't want me to know the price of the seats. ):


Grand Theater, as the picture speak. Very sparsely place, very cozy, very romantic i should say. A number one place to date if you have plenty of cash.








Absolutely no photography but i just can't help! First time there and you don't allow me to take a few photos? No Way!









Didn't I just mention how interesting it is to be sitting there? The dragon in this photo CAN MOVE! the eyes will shine and the wings can fly!

Pizzeria Mozza Advanture

I have to so much to post, so much to say and so LITTLE TIME.

On Christmas Eve, I went dinner with Chun Siong at Marina Bay Sands. Yes, you are looking at MBS. dont doubt your eyes. Anyway, its cool to eat that the celebrity chef restaurant, Pizzeria Mozza!. When the menu came, there's hardly anything I can read. I wonder if i should be there eating too. hahs. anyway, we anyhow ordered 2 appetizers and a pizza. I MUST say, the crust is really nice. Only that I couldn't seem to use knife and fork to cut it into smaller pieces. FYI, I use one hand and the fork to enjoy my pizza. (:


Firstly, we forget to take a picture of this before we start. we are simply famished, at least I am! When it first came, I don't even know how to start eating. Lols. The red thing there is tomato BTW. This dish is called "Mozza caprese." As described "with the deeper flavors of slow-roasted vine tomatoes, creamy burrata cheese, and bright hand-pounded pesto." However, in my own words, the tomato are definitely fragile. While detaching the root, I burst one of it as you can see in the photo. Anyway, it has this wine taste that fills your mouth with flavour and a little soury and the texture of the cheese and pesto is amazing. Just like the egg white when u get it 30% boiled.







Next up, Cauliflower fritti. Fried Cauliflower in short sprinkle with salt. A little salty, but definitely nice! and the sauce beside. can't made up what it is. But I just like it. spicy and cheese. Oh yah, with the tabasco taste!








Our Main Dish! Funghi misti, fontina, taleggio thyme. Its MUSHROOM! my fav mushroom! muahahahaha... Didn't know ChunSiong would suggest this I thought he prefer meat toppings. anyway, my share is the small slice and the rest cleared by him .Hahas.













The back of where I am sitting. The Bar counter looks like a good place to enjoy pizza and a glass of wine.
















At that split second, he smiled with pizza stuff in his cheeks! so funny!

The candle on the right is setting the atmosphere. Love it!

Narnia "exhibition" at the suppose ice-skating ring. Not sure how much to go in but looks nice. (:






Just different views of the same place.

The Un-trusting problem

A while ago I was still debating whether to post this is English or Chinese. English was chosen as I hope to get this over and done with. Last night while I was socialing at En Motion Dance Studio, my phone was silently ringing for over 30mins, one call after another non-stop. By the time we got on to DingYang's car, I saw the faint backlight of my phone showing that someone is calling. Without hesitating, I pick it up. It was a fun night with music and dancing and learning as well. But this call from my dad spoiled EVERYTHING. he was like "do you know how many times we tried calling you? Do you have any idea what time is it now? Dont you think you should have at least call us to tell us where you are?" A series of questions in a tone you could never imagine. While listening, I just rolled my eyes. "I told mum and sis that I will be socializing. they should know what time I will be back." "and pratically they dont know because your sister keeps on saying you are not back yet!" yeah right. I didn't even try to make myself clear, just nodding and saying okay,uhhh,yes simply because I am in someone's car and everyone is listening. I just wanna that damn call to hang up. And finally my dad hung up angrily.

I happen to then see the notifications on the screen... wow, 43 missed calls. No wonder he is so angry. But then my sister say she only started calling at 12. and I picked up the call at 12.27. Hmmmm, 43missed calls in 27mins?! I bet they can probably add this into genius world records. My friends tried to cheer me up saying they are just worried about you. HA! interesting. lets face it, they just don't trust me. Like what I said to Nigel " after so many years of being independent, suddenly I am like a 3 year old kid who doesn't even know when to go home." Another thing, my sister is really... ABSOLUTELY no words can describe her. She is always the one who gets so uptight with everything that when you didn't lock the gate when u step foot into the house she thinks that someone will just come in. Usually I just ignore her non-sense but this is way too much! When she is out till 7am in the morning or 2 days never go home, I trusted her that she knows what she is doing and will definitely come back when its done. And this is what I got from her, telling daddy that she is so worried cause I am not back by 12am. FUCK. sometimes I just wanna bang myself in the wall.

Next is the 43 missed calls. I always thought my dad has the highest EQ. somehow his action tells me otherwise. Seriously, when the phone is not around the person, no matter how many times u call he/she just couldn't pick up. What should be done is leave 2 missed calls and wait for the person to call you back. 43missed calls will not have increased effect on the person psychologically. I DON'T FEEL BAD for not answering that 43missed calls!

Last and least is so disappointed with my sister. Very disappointed. She knows exactly how it is like in the dance studio with music bombarding the ear drums and she allow this whole missed calls and scolding episode to appear. And also posting on my fb wall asking me to call back. wow. in the back of her mind she thinks that my friends will alert me about this and BTW, who will stalk me on my fb? I am thinking, maybe I need to write where i am going everyday on a piece of paper since my family members didn't know how to listen.

Very long post, very childish but sometimes its good to be a child. at least we get to complaint about everything.

冬至大过年

Its the winter season! Another traditional Chinese festival! I heard especially for the cantonese and I expect tonights dinner will be a feast! Anyway, together with coupark colleagues, we celebrated this winter festival at PGP, NUS. Ordered a whole table of food and this is definitely a different way of celebration. Instead of having Tang Yuan, we have dumplings! ZhongHua, ZhengNan and WuPei say in china everyone have dumpling.Glutinous rice balls turns out that only few people will eat. Anyway, if you surf the net, it says that both are eaten to celebrate this festival! (:

Pictures - 20th Birthday

Group Photo!

   

Chloe Parfum From Nigel

Birthday -20th

reading my past posts reminds me of how old i am now. The oldest post was like in 2006 and now I am in 2011, with my birthday over just yesterday.

Thousand and one surprises were given to me this 20th birthday, the best birthday in years! Firstly was the NTU gang's jacket, next Geckngoh bluff me into a girl's night out which turns out to be another birthday surprise with the same gang. Chocolate cake from Awfully chocolate, brought in by Ming Liang when he fake his toilet trip. Next is from KK and Phylisia, my best girlfriend. Both were anticipating something that might happen on my birthday. Upon saying that i am not going to hold anything, both gives the sad face. "i thought u will have something like mahjong" said KK. Anyway, last sun, 17th, Nigel gave me cupcakes with my name spelled with ICING on top! SO SWEET.....  hahas. simply love it. he told me he couldn't come to my actual day to cut cake. and what a dumb dumb i am to have believed his words! Yesterday when i went home, he was there in my dark room with lightsticks arranged in my name and "happy Birthday". it suddenly stuck me. Am i Worth? but i guess i have already gotten my answers. During work ytd, My colleagues had given me a small little cake too!

For the million times i feel blessed and loved, this is the first that i feel "its good to stay alive". And Really. Its like the little light that suddenly came out from nowhere, give me direction for a better future. I want to stay alive! I want to delicate my life to these people who had gone through the trouble to make my birthday so wonderful!.

Birthday Celebration

Ytd, 14-12-11, a group of my NTU mates came up with a surprise for my birthday. That instance, I felt so loved and so fortunate to have these people around me. When the cake came with two candles lighted on it, I feel that the whole world must be envy of me. I have never imagined being worthy of people to make surprises or even celebrate my birthday because I always tell myself, I am just a year nearer to my death. However, I really hope that every year I can spend time with my group of friends. I need to thank them so much for making my birthday such a magical one. I will never forget these moments! Thank you, DMKWLGC.

Now I am imagining, listening to graduation by Vitamin C, what would it be like when we all graduate 4 years later. Will we still cling to this relationship we developed? Or will it just be a chapter of our life as we flipped the pages? Life is full of unexpected, however I will still be optimistic and believe in friends forever. I hope you do too because without these people, our life will not be complete. Once again, I pray that the wishes that I wished for will come true.

Blood Type

太邪门了！这也未必太准了吧。我男友是O型血的他也最讨厌我正面对他，小小事就会发脾气!而我是AB型的。之前发觉有个朋友是双面人之后就跟他绝交了。说真的我不是一个爱发脾气的人所以会闹到绝交也还真是不容易啊。有兴趣看血型漫画就到：这儿来看吧！

是我想太多

事情真的有如此简单吗？是我想太多吗？

我男友的妈妈要请了我去她的生日聚餐。这代表什么吗？我很惊讶，一时不知该怎么反应。本来我是拒绝了但后来我妈叫我去。她说只是一餐，如果你有想跟他继续走下去这一餐是一定要吃的。我很还怕。我现在都不知道我到底有没有把他当男朋友。少时间的见面，没兴趣的交谈。我不知道还能拖多久。爱情就像鲜花，绽放的时间短暂，枯萎的收场。但这次的餐饭我应该可以借机找到我要的答案。

我不了解我到底喜欢什么，爱什么。总觉得很多事情是没永远的。现在把你喜欢的食物写下，过了半年再看看你是否还爱着它们？我只知道我的感情永远不会停留不前。不知是爱得不够深还是我爱我自己胜过一切？在还没解答时，我想冷静。冷静地看看这世界。我相信我能活出自我！

明天会更好！

那年，我们一起追的女孩

看了这部电影让我感触良多。其一，我很后悔为何没好好珍惜以前青春的日子。虽然现在也不是很老，但毕竟都过了玩乐的年龄，需要认真地对待生活的每一天。其二，是很羡慕女主角能有这么多童年。

让我说说对这部戏的感想吧！我喜欢女主角！我觉得她说话很真，不像在演戏。故事一开始很有趣，介绍方式也很独特。最喜欢的就是阿和的热狗掉的那一幕！令我最难忘的应该是沈佳宜在雨中喊“笨蛋，大笨蛋！你什么都不懂！”的那一幕。我相信这也是真情流露的一幕。总之很感人！我给这部戏8.8分！我现在最想做的是去看那个小说！

Birth of DMKWLGC.blogspot.com

Congratulations! DMKWLGC.blogspot is finally operating! this is a blog that records the little moments the NTU clique had together whether is it in school or outside! Hurray. Show us your support by following our blog! (:

December Schedule

终于考完了！经过一连串的临时抱佛脚，熬夜，睡眠不足，没味口，担心害怕，今天统统都结束了！！！虽然还是有些难过但考都考完了，再想这些也都没什么用！就让我好好的用功玩乐吧！ 在下个月内我可有好长一篇东西要做。就在以下说个明白：
1日: 希望能如愿的开工
2日：还在考虑要不要去bbq
6-8日：在学校过夜
10日：跟女友出去
11日：跟中学同学出门
13日：每逢星期二有练舞
20日：我生日－但还没想到要做些什么
24日：去圣诞聚餐
真不敢想象我的12月会如此的精彩。好开心啊！！！期待期待。(:

明天会更好

老天希望你在上面能够眷顾一些需要你的人。今天突然了解了原来人可以过得那么苦。真正的痛苦不是来自肉体而是来自心灵。希望以下这一首歌能够让大家度过难关。

 

小沈阳

无意间看到了这歌。听了之后心情曼愉快的！

考试

考试也考了一半！今天我还真不知道要说些什么。感觉轻松了很多。但我还有一科要考。 看现在就这样吧。

心机

很久没来了，有点怀念我这个老地方。

今天我朋友对我敞开胸怀，告诉了我他懊恼的事。还说要和他朋友绝交。说着，他说很意外的能和我聊这么久。至于原因呢。他说有些人很聪明知道在话中挑他的缺点来捉他的痛脚。但我不会。简单来说就是我太笨了，完完全全不知道怎么在他的话中挑刺。别以为我很不高兴哦，其实这也是一件好事对吧？毫无心机的跟别人交谈。我不是很厉害说话，设计别人，像在人家身上得到好处。我只是很真心的想要跟每个人做朋友，谈谈心事。但我知道这样是可遇不可求的。在我交过的无数个朋友当中，能谈心的也就少过手指能数的。而这几个朋友也不是说要谈心就能谈心的，还要想想他们到底有没有空啦，和想不想听我说。总之有太多的顾虑让我无法说出。

好啦。今天读了一整天的书，真的很困了。晚安啦，我亲爱的日记。

发泄

在温习上遇到瓶颈了！该是时候休息休息。但是呢，我很像休息了很久了！我所谓吧，就让我一个人自言自语。你有听说自言自语也是一种疏解压力的方法吗？何不尝试面对镜子跟自己说说话，或许你还会领悟到莫些事呢。不说了。是时候面对我的经济学了。我到现在还是很后悔为何当初不拿掉这科？真是害惨我了。

Speechless

I guess I should say that today is the MOST embarrassing and unluckiest day in the past few years! I have always lied to myself that one day my luck will turn good and all the suayness that I am experiencing now would mean nothing. Today proved me wrong! this suayness will be clinging to me for the rest of my life!


This afternoon I was suppose to have an interview over at NUS for an administration job. At 12.30pm, the sky is a little cloudy no sign of thunderstorm. 1.15pm, I walk out of Clementi mall and heavy rain pour. My sister and I still went to board bus to NUS. However, when we are there, it wasn't just heavy rain, its practically thunderstorm! Raindrops were flying or rather SPRAYING in ALL directions! and with this little umbrella, it can't shelter us to ICUBE. Therefore we choose to wait at the bus stop. 30mins passed, Boss told me if I couldn't get my ass up there, then we can re-arrange another appointment. DEFINITELY. Another 5mins passed, the rain somehow became smaller. At least the rain drops are flying in the same direction. And so we decided to walk up to ICUBE. 1step, 2 steps, 3 steps and next I realize I am stepping on my right foot, BARE. My sandal gave way! at this crucial time. Left me with no choice, we walk back to the bus stop. People are STARING at me. Why would such thing happen to me? Although this is not the first time my shoe/slipper give way, but at least they were less humiliating. First the RAIN and then BARE foot walking in the rain. Whats worst? I was so moody after that. Although I manage to make a temporary sandal to help me walk but it didn't make me feel better. Just how suay one can get? I heard people say, God is fair. U will have your suay moments and lucky ones throughout your life and their quantities and quality will be the same. When will my lucky moments come?



Anime Festival 2011 @ SunTec City convention hall 402, 403!
Its really cool to see all these characters come to live. Brings back memories of how crazy I used to be! Can u identify some of the characters like I ?

re-blogging

Just today, or yesterday I have got tracking from both http://truthofdarkness.blogspot.com/ and http://wkhan10.blogspot.com/. Looks like these two good buddies of mine have started this whole blogging AGAIN! and this is certainly a good thing! More readers and now these two mates. This blog is going to start the whole trend of blogging again.

A little note to WKhan: I have tried the app on blogger but it is way too lousy! we should just stick to this conventional way of blogging, through comp. Anyway, Iphone has stop all Google apps if i am not wrong so.... in the future when there are other blogging apps available, u might want to change to android! simply BECAUSE ANDROID RULEZ! MUAHAHA..

To TruthOfDarkness: Yeah! we did not talk for the past, hmmmm few months I guess? if not YEARS? but I am hoping its not that long. Glad to know that u are starting your manhood period, the army. Hope everything is good with you! (: Maybe when u read this you will want to meet up soon? Anyway, you have got my number so TEXT ME!

11.11.11

不知道这么一个幸福的一天你们都在做什么呢？？我知道！一定都忙着工作吧。为何不拿几分钟看看这个奇特的一天背后的意义呢？

我在网络找了找，原来１１１１１１这一天在洋人的世界里是不好的。据说什么号码都有好跟不好的征兆但唯独１１没有。也就这样被称之为邪恶的一天。而据说在１１／１１／１１就会有一道门打开。而我当然也不知道会发生什么事。但是就有很多鬼洋片会在这天上演。不过在这么特殊的一天就让我们想点好事吧。比方说花语的１１１１１１就是指一心一意，一生一世，一辈子只爱你一个人。呵呵，是不是很贴心呢？你们还在等什么！还不把这句话跟一束花送给你最亲爱的她？

加油咯。愿有情人能够终成眷属！

病了

大家好！很久没写了。功课繁忙请勿责怪。今天我生病了。我想应该是昨天我太兴奋和太多柠檬水，搞得我喉咙很不舒服。如果明天不好那就的去看医生咯，真要命。

晚餐时我约了Dickson和Lilian吃晚餐。约好了在Canteen A 吃饭但我却搭车到hall1。来到餐厅才发觉来错了地方！结果就有搭车回CanteenA。

我看我真是名副其实的笨蛋！在学校都三个月了就连东南西北都不知道在哪儿。我看我假期应该打工花点钱在导盲犬上。至少我可以省掉走冤枉路的力气。
不说了， 我今天需要早点休息。希望明天能痊愈！

步步惊心看完了！很感人。“请你不要在我忘记你之前忘记我。”但最后他还是先忘了。 以下我想让以后的我能再看这部电视剧。请观赏！

我的赖皮女友

我觉得这首歌真的超棒！让我能感受爱情的力量！

Blood type comic

 Ytd went out with Ester! hees. Know this AB girl while working at NUH. We clique super well when I first saw her. She was sitting outside of her laboratory while reading her Korean textbook. It all started out with that book and then slowly we chat more and more! Simply because my job was too slack. Hence she is like a close sister to me. There was once she borrowed the blood type comic book and together we went to discuss the accuracy of it! It was so funny! Love the time we had. Now that both of us are studying, interaction lessen. ): but its okay. somehow we are linked together by Blood type! According to statistic, only 5% of the population have AB blood. Hahs! Recently she went Korea for holiday and bought me this AB blood type character keychain! Muahahaha.. Its so CUTE! I have a pair of it.. so will be actively searching for AB blood people. So each of us can hold the character and act like communicating! Omg. i think I am crazy. And all thanks to Royston. He and his lousy thoughts drilling into my mind! anyway, somehow he became my EX part-time boyfriend after ytd's chat. And this is the shortest relationship ever!! 1hr?! lols! This is just for laugh! Talk to many rubbish already. Lols. 

You may click to enlarge the photos~~

                                   

Isn't this Cute?~ 

Inside. When AB marry an AB

This shows what happens when 2 AB come together. Alien words fly all over!

How Blood A and B handle LOVE.

Although I feel that I fall mostly in Blood B for this but knowing that I am an Angel is cool too!

This shows how weird AB are. (:  No one knows what I am thinking.! 

离题

就让我来发发牢骚！妈妈真的是太太太溺爱弟弟了。今早妈妈忘了买土地爷爱喝的咖啡，就吵着要我们下去买。我们就不愿意啊。大姐说我们还没洗澡，如果急就让弟弟下去买。我很是赞成，因为懒惰呗。但我妈却说：“弟弟不会买等会儿买错了不是浪费钱吗？”问题来了。你们一定以为我弟弟还小，顶多十四岁。大家猜错了！我弟弟可是十八岁了！十八岁的一个大男孩既然不知道怎么买包装咖啡！这是哪门子的笑话啊？就这样我姐跟妈理论起来：“又不是每个人一出生就会买东西。不学怎么会呢？为什么你总是只让弟弟做他懂得事而不让他接触他不懂的呢？”在这里我要说我弟弟决不是什么智障儿。他脑袋清醒，四肢发达，现在在理工学院就读。我妈就是看不惯我们成天想“欺负”他而常常跟我们“作对”。　之后姐姐说不过她也就丢下一句：“好啦我去”。　但我妈也没就此结束她问了我弟一句：“你会倒垃圾吗？会还不去倒！”嗨哟我的天啊！这根本就不是问题啊！我现在都还在想，我妈妈到底知不知道问题在哪里？根本就是因为她只让我弟弟做他会的东西啊！！！　

这也让我想起昨天她荒谬的回答。昨天我去见工了。是一个补习中心的工作。老板说他需要我能在补习中心待一年因为一旦开了我的班如果换老师会对学生不好。考试期间也不能停。就因为这个条件让我苦恼了很久。回家我想找妈妈聊聊，还真没想到她给我的回答是：“兼职工不都应该这样吗？最少也要做个一两年吧？”　所谓对牛谈情，她根本就没给我意见。在无可忍的地步下我说了：“你不觉得你说的没帮助吗？你既然拿我和你朋友相比？你不觉得你应该问问我是不是需要这份工？学业上会有问题吗？不然去找一些短暂的工？”其实这也是些我爱听的话。我不是说她一定要这样说但我没想到她既然会说我根本不想做工！　算了，一切都过了。

心如止水

很多事情并没有想象中的容易。之前有人告诉我，两人在一起不只是靠感觉，还需要考虑到到底对方适合自己，两人性格是否会起冲突。另外还有家人，文化及宗教信仰。我原本很天真的以为爱可以包容一切，让两人顺利地走下去。但往往事情都不是这样。应该说这是我的一厢情愿。爱情不是面包，饥饿时不能充饥。它只会带来不开心的回忆。现在的我心如止水，什么事也无法造涟漪。以下为你们介绍一首动听的歌曲，《三寸天堂》。记得歌曲是用心去聆听的！

爱情真伤

回到家的感觉着好，心情没那么沉重了。

今夜的我感觉很凄凉，想找个人谈谈心事但却没人在身旁。我发了短信给我朋友，但没把心事说出。这只是我一厢情愿的想把事情说出来但没考虑到他想不想听。我很自私，我想利用他对我的喜欢。但我最终还是把话题扯远了。我不想人家为我担心，为我烦恼。我有尝试发短信给Nigel,但我什么也没等到。没回短信也没电话。这几天都这样。我们为了不存在的病因吵了，之后他也就没回我短信了。真不知道是我的错还是他的敏感。

爱情就是这样，来得太快也走得匆匆。我太小看爱情带来的杀伤力，等到精疲力尽时才后悔跳入了这个陷阱。人都一样，总是在受伤之后才后悔。曾经有人这么问我，：“如果给你一个特意功能，你最想要什么？”那时我的答案是什么也不要，或是想要能让我瞬间移动的能力。这样就能环游世界啦!哈哈。但现在我现在最想要的是能看见未来，每个人的未来都是未知数。这个社会有太多的选择让我们迷失方向。如果我能看见未来，我就能够为自己选择一个对我伤害最小的路走。

晚上的我很喜欢胡乱瞎猜。也许是因为我的活力都用完了，现在只剩下我清静我脑袋。想说什么就是什么。也许现在的我最真。我很渴望找到一个能为我一心一意付出的人但我却不想付出。很傻对不对？不想付出但却可望爱。我真的很自私。今天就让我任性一次吧。

Nigel 终于回信了，但我没回。就当我睡了吧。很晚了，你也睡吧！

Diarrhea

I had this little problem of having loose stools every other day. The first time I had it was about 1.5 years ago? or slightly longer. Anyway, I found out that my body don't seem to digest some of the food I take. That day I was working, felt a sudden pain or contract like feeling in my stomach, went to toilet and as the liquid stools came out, a papaya smell accompanied with it. I took a look and saw my stools were orange and disgusting. Conclusion, the papaya I ate the previous day wasn't digested and came out like how it was chewed. 

I went to a specialist and it cost me $75 if I am not wrong. Anyway, the doctor told me there can only be two possibilities. 1) bacteria in my intestine depleted hence not enough microbes to help digest the food. 2) Cancer. He added that for my age cancer is not possible. I understand why he said that because for cancer to occur, mutations must happen. And mutations came with exposure of carcinogenic stuff and usually takes time for mutation to occur. Therefore, it can only be the first reason. I tried taking Yakult after that but I guess it doesn't help. Constipation still occur, loose stools released every other day. I didn't go back for more consultations with the doctor. First is money, second is no willing to. 

Recently, I tried to stop eating chilli. And I guess this helps. At least now I experience some solid stools now and then. But I simply love chilli too much! How can someone survive without chilli? it whet's one appetite. I have to stop! Just now, i had loose stools again. I msg Nigel and he is like super duper concern about it. That makes me wonder, i told him this situation before and he cared no less. Why suddenly this reaction? I told him about the money issue and cancer and bacteria. I guess all he heard was the money and cancer. So he offered to lend me and then ask me to go check up tml. Arrgh. I have my principles! and the first one says, NO BORROWING of money!. yeah, and I don't intend to break it in near future. Till now, I still haven't reply his " Go tml". One shouldn't take life or death too seriously. I can't predict the future, and therefore I feel that if its time for me to go, I will have to go. Nothing is gonna stop it. 

Such a pessimistic person. Yeah. And I agree to it. Next year I will go for the check up. Not because of cancer. But because cleaning up my backside after the loose stools are simply too irritating! lols. 

Goodnights babe. 

亲爱的微薄，很久没来谈心了。跟你说，昨天dickson跟我一块儿塔地铁回家哦。我们聊了很多。我很犹豫，他是个好人但我还是没办法把我被骗的事情说出来。好像是太笨了，怕被人笑话。也太自卑了吧！算了，都过了这么久，我很想也没那么生气了。都怪我自作聪明吧！

就写到这里咯。我希望我的每一天都会过得很充实，很快乐。

童话故事

有时候我就在想我的浪漫童话故事何时会发生呢？何时我的白马王子会骑着白马到我的面前伸手拉我上马，两人幸福的过着快乐的日子。我的白马王子呢要非常的疼我，爱护我。喜欢我乱耍脾气，我的笨，我的没大脑，爱我的一切一切。而我也爱他的所有缺点！ 哈哈。我总觉得他离我不远。你相信一见钟情吗？就像白雪公主那样，在莫一个晚上和王子跳了舞就彼此相爱，过着快乐的日子。

人总得在做梦之后苏醒吧。我的美丽幻想也是时候藏进我的小小世界里。大家请你们再次收藏好我的秘密哦。很爱你们！

First Job call From AIA.

Thought I could make it but its at Tanjong pagar! Traveling time would be twice my working time. They are looking for telemarketers. Speak on the phone, do surveys. BTW, that woman has got a nice voice and is less demanding than Malaysians. My opinion, she's a Singaporean. Hahs!
Anyway, this is a good start. 1 call and i guess subsequent calls will come! and hopefully I can get interesting jobs. God bless me! I know you will.

在下午一点钟：

蠢死了。我看我真是世界一大蠢材怎么这么容易就被人骗了呢？如果有蠢人俱乐部我一定会被邀请当主席的。咳，真的笨死了！

下午三点钟：

我又在想昨天本的举动！。 我干吗要心软啊？白白的把钱送给别人。现在你身无分文了吧！咳哟，别说了吧。越说越感到自卑。我发誓我再也不回带卡去这种地方了。

晚上十点钟：

过了一天的挣扎，我好像没那么自责了。很像是因为我把我财产的数目告诉了我男友。感觉上心里的大石被放下了。

晚上十二点：

我真的很后悔。很后悔我昨天作的决定。面对今天的账单我跟加感到惭愧。已经有两个月没绞电话费了。而我也没这么多钱。该怎么办呢？做工啊！还能这么办呢？我得好好找份工了。

我好笨哦！为什么这么容易就被别人牵着鼻子走？今天我去了瘦身中心!你没看错我真的去了那种有钱人的地方。我是通过933有优惠去的。但我却还是被骗了$321！我没当下给这么多就一半咯。咳！我真的很后悔。我有去阻止但卡都进了机器里，拿不回了。做了第一个疗程，还真没什么效果。我觉得我真的傻辟了！怎么耳根这么软呢？我现在还真不敢跟别人说我去了那里。算了。我这傻人应该有傻福吧。现在我只是在等援助金到。我的家产现在只有$82! 可不可怜啊？

好啦。我很感谢我有这个微薄来让我倾诉。这里记载了我重重的傻事。我可真笨。真的好笨！算了啦。笨就笨咯。笨过之后才会聪明嘛！呵呵。在座的各位请你们不要揭穿我哦。名女感谢您！

大家晚上好！今天又和大学同学去吃晚餐了。我很喜欢我们在一起的时光。世界很大，但在茫茫人海中找到能谈心的对象还真不容易。我会很珍惜我们的友谊。但什么多过友谊都不可能！

Presenting you my latest favorite singer! Qi Wei!

欢迎欢迎！欢迎大家又准时来到我的微薄。虽然我知道这里写的都很无聊。但就将就一点吧。昨天练舞了。很多人没来。感觉上很想每个人都很像缺乏兴趣了。但我还是很热爱舞蹈。喜欢到暴了!但是呢，我并不是天生的舞者。我没有柔软的骨骼，也没有舞者应该有的性感。我觉得我只是一个很普通的人。什么都不好的人。昨天我亲爱的老师还说我像一个ｂａｂｙ！我想笑但又想哭！这也是所谓的哭笑不得吧。好啦。就写到这里。

First English language post since several months ago!? Anyway, this morning I am such a good girl. Helped to vacuum and mop the floor. The tiles are SPARKING clean now!

Today is Ding Yang's Birthday! I don't think i will remember him after I graduate from NTU. Therefore, i should write exactly who he is. We joined salsa at the same time and we have the exact fair skin! Thats all. I shall publish this little present that I make for him in 15mins. Seriously, I am proud of myself. I have unleashed this little designer in me and made this picture for him. Oops, i think i should make it more specific. I searched google for the lollipop and and added the fonts myself. Wait, does this make this picture mine? Errrr..... hmmmm.. I think I shouldn' t take others credit.

Ta Dannnnnnnnn~ Cute little photo. (:

大家早上好！又到了废话时间！这几天你都在干嘛呢？昨天我和理工学院的同学见面了！一起吃晚餐。很开心，好久没见到他们，很想念在一起的日子。三年里要不是他们在身边，我的日子也不会这么充实，愉快。Dalston 现在在当兵，Charlene 还在poly. Lisa 去了SIM， WaiEng 也在PSB 修读，ShiNing 则在工作上冲刺！我呢？我还在为我漫长的读书生涯唉声叹气。四年的时间，我该怎么过呢？不说了。我还有测验要读。我想我这几年都应该会在书堆里过。

Ugly Truth

现在已经很晚了但我还是想抽点时间写写今天得知的Ugly Truth！前些我不是有参加露营吗？在那里既然发生了难以想象的事！莫莫人和莫莫人接吻，亲热！虽然我没亲眼看到但句句属实！而且更惊爆的是有两对人都这么做！莫莫男人还有一个交往了六年的女友。而另一对的莫莫女也有男友！晴天霹雳啊，他们在我心中的完美形象就这么毁了。好了，其实也不是什么大事就出轨呗。都什么时代了？不能这么封建了。

在冲凉时，我突然有个想法。我想开多一个微搏。这个微薄主要是以录音为主，让我为大家解爱情问题！当那时，就拜托大家帮帮忙宣传一下咯！在这儿，名女向各位说声多谢！！

呵呵！大家早上好，现在时间是1028分。昨天的你开心吗？今天是全新的一天哦！所以不管你昨天做了些什么，今天也要开开心心的过！俗话说的好，开心也是一天，不开心也是一天。为何不开开心心的过呢？哦，这是俗话吗？怎么比较向现代话！哈哈！我发觉我好无聊哦。但是没关系！只要有人对着这银幕发笑我就满足了。

今早我很早就起身了，被爸爸吵醒。我发觉我全家人都有点变态。总看不惯有人的一天比他们晚开始所以如果你睡得比较迟一些些，就有人来你床是出怪招要你起身。就算你抗议但只要你有意识的回答问题他们就会放过你。就像今天，我爸近来了：阿洁怎么还没起身？今天不用上课吗？我迷迷糊糊中回答：“没学校”又回去睡了。别以为他就这么让我睡了。他还继续问:"没学校？你学校难不成倒了吗？”哦！我快疯了。之后就回答一句：是没课。他或许故意没听见就一直跟我姐吱吱咋咋的说我学校倒了！我姐结果受不了说了一句"shut up lah" 而我爸爸就像只受了打击的小鸟，在一帮发笑。呵呵。现在想起来我爸还真可爱。刚刚在Facebook和大姐聊了这件事，她说她还真怕爸爸大发雷霆呢！但还好，我爸有点古怪不当一会儿事。

好啦，我也应改开始我今天的复习！总觉得提不起劲儿。该怎么办呢？

昨天我做了一格决定。我决定在身上携带着一本笔记本记录一些我觉得不可思议的事。就像现在，跟着lilian来到学校咖啡厅后面读书。等了好一会儿都没位子。这时lilian却说要和他人一起坐。我还真有点惊讶。Lilian总是给我一种很高高在上的感觉。有车，而且还住在bungalow!好夸张。总之她这举动让我觉得她不但没架子还很好呢！我既羡慕又佩服。这样的好女孩到底哪里找呢？？ 我是否也能跟她一样？

今天第一次和大学同学一同出游！也不算是出游，就一群人去看了abduction 呗。之后就到TCC喝茶聊天。我这个乐天派也是笑柄，哈哈。现在想想我还真大胆。过了今天我还真喜欢这一组人。哦，忘了说有哪些人了。Dickson, Ming Liang, Wilson, AhKai(Kai Wei), GeckNogh 和Lilian. 呵呵，还真是一群好玩的对象。我在这儿很诚心的希望lilian 和dickson, ahKai 和 Gecknogh 能在一起。这两人还真是不折不扣的好男人！当让如果可以我也想要留给自己，但还是算了吧。人总不能这么自私对吧？偶尔也应该把好的事物让给别人。啊，怎么他们变成事物了？还真是越描越黑。不说了。现在要入正题了。我刚才目睹了一件好人好事。

我这个人其实很自以为是，从来都不相信底下还有人情味。但眼前这三人就证明了我是错的。在搭乘地铁回家时，我站在这三个热的面前。最左边的大约４０岁，中华籍女子，中间的约２０岁，马来籍女子，而最右边的约２０岁外籍男子。中华籍女子拿着ｉｔｏｕｃｈ，挥挥手要男生帮她操作，男生二话不说的帮她。之后他们三人有说有笑的。我观察到他们手上都拿着同一个袋子，这也证明了他们是认识的。过了１０分钟，我始终没听见那女士说话，一直只是比手划脚。我起初还以为她不会英语！这时我心想：“如果是我，有人在我身边晃来晃去我一定被烦死了。”但这念头每残留太久，我发觉原来那女士是个哑巴。现在我非常敬佩那两人。他们愿意和残疾人士交往，沟通，还一同出游。这真是太难得的好事。他们成功的体现出人间尚有人情这句话。我希望利用这个故事呼吁所有热血的年轻人要以这两人围榜样。不分年龄种族的为这些残疾人士带来欢笑与快乐。所谓人人快乐，我也就快乐。

工作的某一天

现在我才了解原来电影的题材都是来自现实世界。我昨天很伤心，因为没能去露营。但我只后把300远花了我心里才好过一点。电影不是常说女人解决痛苦的方法有两种吗？不是暴饮暴食就是去大买特卖。一直以来我以为我是吃的那一类，但过了昨天我才知道原来我是花钱大王！ 今早起身是我才真正的后悔 作晚草率的决定。这件是的发生让我了解，心情那过是就应该做一写让你更难过的事。这样你就不会在去想之前发身的事了。用英文说应该比较流利。“The best way to forget the pain is to do something as painful.” 现在我的钱包破了一个大洞，接下来的日子有的受了每天吃面包当三餐。真希望八月能快点到，可以拿工资。

早上发生的很多事！我应该没办法多一一写出来。今天这里活动，所以很热闹。我一到就进手术室把昨天送来的猪肝 和肠子那去解冻。我工作的地方是一间练习室。里头有十架手术台，8架麻醉机器和胃镜检查机。这里的设施很完善所以时常会有教授租这里开办学习课程。今天也不例外，也有活动，用的只是猪的器官。但今天的赞助商很不友善。她叫Jamie。她狠狠地修理我们，因为没帮她做好准备工作。但其实也不是我们的错。我们新人根本不知道她需要些什么。我很不高兴，他也像别人一样，瞧不起我的存在。还好准备功夫赶在中午时办好。也算是有惊无险。

有谁知道这世界什么感觉是最难受的？是失恋时吗？还是当你很想得到某些东西但又得不到时?我想最难受的应该是从高处狠狠甩下来的时候。 我很自信的以为我能去大学二年，但当事实摆在眼前时我却无法面对。我很惭愧，我让身边的人对我这么有信心但又让他们失望。很讨厌这样的感觉，象是力气全都不见似的。我的活力到哪里去了?!我也不知道。很迷茫。

分叉道路

人生的道路上有许多我门需要做决定的事，但我门并不知道哪个才是最正确，最开心的路。不久前我毕业了，是理工学院毕业生。以后我将会上南大就读生物学。但现在我还是不知道这是不是我所要向往的未来。在实验室工做了两个星期我体会到了辛苦，无聊和精疲力尽。所以呢，我觉得我毕业后不会在试验室里长久。我想做老师。但教的不是生物学，而是华语。 厉害吧，读生物学教华文。我太佩服我自己了。

回到刚才的话题。 我对我的人生还抱这很大的期望，我想我的人生变得很多姿多彩但有时又很矛盾觉得平淡才是幸福。 总之我们做的每个决定都不应该后悔。走的每一步棋都会给我门惊喜。所一不要置疑你的决定，我门要努力的望前冲，冲出自我！

Graduation!

Congratulations to me! I survived the 3 years in Poly and is now going to Uni!. Hopefully 3.5years later I will be celebrating my Uni graduation! Am I dreaming? Please allow me to crap. There are too many things in my mind that I would like to pour it out. I have officially quit my job over at kemin industries(Asia) Pte Ltd and will be starting my new part time job over at ASTC In June.

很久都没有写blog了。千万不要认为我已经抛弃你了，只是最近有太多事情发生，不知从何说起。总之我就很倒霉换了两份不好的工。真不知道为何我的运气会如此的差。或许我应该每天拜拜求老天让我的运气变好，出门遇贵人，事事顺心。

今天本来因该是一个很开心的一天，但又有许多事情发生。弟弟带了一帮朋友上来玩麻将，但万万没想到他既然邀了十多个好朋友上来玩。事情也就一件一件的发生了。

1）虽让有很多人到家，但却没有一个人向我爸爸问好。对他们的第一影像十分之差，真是一群没教养的小孩子啊。
2）吵吵闹闹的，嫌一桌麻将太少，坚持要开两桌。另一桌摆在神座见面，不尊敬神。
3）弟弟放下了朋友会房里玩电脑。被爸爸知道了又点生气就去了他房里逊了他一顿。
4）妈妈会来了，又大发雷霆，完全不给弟弟面子。就这样他们离开，去吃宵夜了。

我有点不高兴。不知为什么爸爸，妈妈这么偏激。弟弟的朋友之所以没打招呼是因为爸爸在房里，每人愿意进去啊。当然，这不足以造成一个理由。我对这一点也十分不满。接着，是神座的问题。在几年前爸爸和妈妈也常常带朋友回来玩麻将，有时也把麻将桌放在神座的面前。但这几年很少带人回来，因该是怕肮脏吧。总之弟弟就是有样学样。但爸爸和妈妈不这么觉得哦。他们都没想想以前做过的事。我真的很同情弟弟呢。在朋友面前受了这么大的打击。想一想如果我是他的朋友会如何呢？从此不敢踏进这个家了吧。我脑里面浮现了很多想法，但却没人听我倾诉这些事情。很似孤独呢。能跟我沟通的人到底在哪里呢？

啊，原来我这一辈子都不会得到这个人。