你

突然很冲动的想把这段话记录下。

什么是女人？女人是一种很奇妙的动物。她们明知道是深坑也一定要栽下去。　因为，你没尝试你就不会发觉其中的可能。　
如果他爱你的方式不是你要的，那你还会牢牢抓着这段感情吗？
他如果不能为你改变，那你呢？会改变吗？改变之后，你还是你吗？你还会爱你自己吗？
在一段感情里，人人都想做那个他爱你多过你爱他，但又有多少人有这个福气呢?　在爱的另一端，他是否也如此渴望？爱还能接下去吗？
最终你想要的爱情是什么？

渴望希望与失望

渴望，失望，孤独是我认为最可怕的感受。 你可以强颜欢笑但不可以隐藏心里的孤独，失落。 渴望是失望的燃烧点也是欢喜的交界处。 有了渴望就像走在钢丝上，钢丝慢慢的往上蔓延。 越是向前，兴奋与欢喜就越加倍。相对的当我们不甚跌落时，失望也会掩盖我们，让我们喘不过气. 最后只能慢慢的，渐渐的失去自我。 失望的代价远比最终得到的成就大太多。于是我便走向自我关闭的道路，不再有希望跟渴望。 但越是想逃避，人生越是想把你拉回啦。无奈，只能向前让渴望，期望，失望占据我的人生。

P.S 没期望，没渴望， 就不会失望

Discontentment

Do you feel blessed in this world? Do you feel that things always go against your wish? Are you happy with your life? Are you contented?

I am contented with my life. I am in a happy relationship, I have great parents, siblings whom sometimes makes me wanna kill myself yet they are also awesome in their ways; a job that pays the bills. To be honest, I love my life. Does being contented makes me want to stop improving?

Many believe that discontentment is the main driver for improvement. I, however, beg to differ. Well, it is obvious that if you feel discontented, there must be something that needs to be improved. However what follows closely with discontentment is unhappiness. I believe in being happy with every decision I make. However, one should never stop making themselves better. Unhappiness should  not be the only driver for improvement. One should never stop improving because you have no idea what your limits are. 

Be happy yet strive for the better. One day, you will be proud of what you've achieved in this life. 

你的价值呢？

今天才知道我的价值。$3,000,000,000这个天文数字能夠让你放弃一切吗？我的他能。

江山易改，本性难移

Things could've been done the right way from day 1. Choosing not to do it the right way has caused repercussions. I thought I've learnt this after all these years. Truth is, I've learnt nothing. Changing the ring size is gonna be pain in the ass. It'll cost both time and money. I hope I'll take this incident seriously and never to make the same kind of mistakes again.

:( sad. Hopefully everything will turn out well.

2015年的终结

大家好！我毕业了！！早在五月时毕业了！现在在陈笃生医院就职，是一名毫不起眼的小虾。我工作的地点是传染病中心，但工作主要是讨好老板，让她每天开开心心的上班， 在升值加薪时想到我。不知不觉已在这儿7个月了。学到的东西很多，大多是如何与人相处。 在这么大的公司上班唯一的生存之道是参加政治游戏。为了上位，很多人都在搞政治。我呢？也因为政治搞到无法工作。女人啊，往往是公司政治的来源，而我的办公室就是女人称霸。接下来的日子难过咯。好砬。不唠叨了。该说些开心的事。 

2015年，我经历了很多人事物。真所谓经一事长一智，我相信我成长了很多！
 一月份: 学习到了珍惜。人生无时无刻都有很多诱惑，我败给了自己的好奇心而辜负了他人对我的信任。很庆幸我有了第二次机会，可以一起建造我们的未来。
五月份：终于把最后的论文交上去了！两天后也开始上班了。 人生开启了新的一页。
八月份：毕业咯！爸妈来参加我的毕业典礼。在台上，我不自主的跳了起来!在典礼外还跟死党们拍照。非常开心！工作也渐渐的忙。 伟俊跟我也讨了房子，非常靠近他的家。我两一起走向人生的另一个阶段。
十一月份：有时间出国咯！这次去了越南。到了好几个博物馆参观越南的历史。也遇到了几个伟俊的朋友。他们热情的招待也让我们不好意思。但有他们的越南旅程真的很好玩！
十二月份：拿了人生的第一个bonus!! 突然之间变有钱。呵呵呵呵！ 

一年过得好快啊！也在这里希望明年也能过得开开心心，过得很充实。也希望我能在这一年找到我的才能，找到自己的喜好！

 在这里要祝每个人开心快乐哦！

#Justsaying

You can't blame someone who left the knife on the table, when you use it to commit a crime.

Selfish gene and altruism

What is a perfect world? I have always hope for a world where people can be selfless, help everyone with all their power. However, the world is not created this way. Natural selection has favor the selfish genes as it provide these individual with higher survival chances. This lead me to think if i should feel upset about my sister's choice. I hope she will not be the reason for the failure of a new startup. Her decision for leaving a startup at its critical moment is a display of selfishness. However, since this is what human's have evolved to become, I don't know if I can hold her responsible for it. Life is difficult.

又一段文章结束了

实习生涯已告一个段落，慢慢的在习惯新学期。在这暑假，我体会了很多丰富的人生经验也更懂得自己接这该真么往前走。 精彩的人生往往是需要府上一些精彩的片断。 请好好欣赏哦，给将来的我。

 BMW World 2014 拍的照片。也是我结束实习的一个星期前。

 在那之前我们大伙儿一块儿到的High Society 吃午餐。看上去真的很无聊。所以我就自己瞎搅和了一番。

在我的实习生涯中其实过得还不错。但我就觉得他们太拘束了。在工作时完全不说话，闷都闷死了。虽然如次，但我还是庆幸能跟他们学习! 另一篇问章将要开启，往人生的道路向前。

Joanna 和 Yanping 的 23 岁惊喜

看了我之前的post.想说既然我曾写过我们如何为Joanna庆祝22岁生日，那这次23岁生日应该也简短的谈一谈。我们这会儿去的是位于牛车水一带的49 Seats。 这家餐厅很好找，弯入一个小街就能看到了。除了有普通的内座，这家餐厅还提供了室外的座位。由于这家店的面积很小，内座其实并不理想。一来他们并没有空调，二来座位又靠得太进，可以说是毫无隐私。闷热的室内经过长时间会令人感到不适。室外的座位其实也还ok. 因为就坐在路边啊，感觉好象流浪街头似的。虽然如此，但餐厅往往不是聚会的主要目的。有好友陪伴的聚会才具有意义。啊，唯一一点值得提起的是这家餐厅的营业时间是1800 到早晨0430! 喜欢吃夜宵的人请关注哦。

Yvonne, Joanna: 又是我们的大头照！超开心的！

  

点了一道熏鸭意大利面，不错哦！

Yan ping, Joanna: 接着我们走了一段路来到了liang court 一间咖啡厅。一石二鸟的为两个寿星庆祝迟来的生日。

很用心的给Joanna 手工做了回忆盒。功劳都是yan ping 的哦。只有她有着一双巧手。

两个寿星开心的笑！

写作的热诚

最近又迷上了言情小说，一鼓作气在三天里看了两本。虽然剧情十分普遍但我还是看得津津有味，爱死不现实的爱情故事。就这样，我有了写作的冲动，我将会投入我101%的精神在下一个故事。这个故事会描述四个女生在感情生活的挣扎。故事纯属虚构，希望认识我的人和对号入座的读者将来请别胡乱猜测。如想知道真相，请随时联络我。另外，我相信你们能够相信真实的我。

在这里， 我最想说的是希望自己能完全投入，以及能尽快完成这篇作品。对于三分钟热度的我，这将会是难度极为高的挑战。但我还是希望我能坚持到最后。 加油啊！

P.S 这已是我挑战写作的第5次。但还是要为我打气哦!

死性不改

伤心是因为难过，哭是因为不服气。
刚踏进家门的那一刻，你的回应不是问好，是责骂。追根究底才发现是病痛使你见人就骂! 我的存在不是为了让你责骂,我哭是因为不服输!为什么你一肚子的气需要发在我身上呢？

男友向你说情但还是没办法挽救我对您的失望。他说你还是爱我的只是当你知道我有危险时语气就更重了。爱是要两个人互相对应的。如果你爱的方式不是我能接受的那你的爱就错了!

爸爸，这个世界上不是每个人都能像你经历风风雨雨，能对抗势力。今天有可疑人物想要接近我，我应当做出拍照的行为。但我没，因为当时跟本想不出应该怎么对抗。至于警察，他们根本就没办法做事因为可疑人物什么也没做到。当然他们也不会去调查。但是，没必要打这个不具任何意义的仗。所以我会再次去报警!做到让你满意!

这件事我不会忘记。因为我要让我自己记得你有多蛮不讲理。

Silk or Cotton

Baju Kurung & Baju Melayu

Yesterday my friend asked me, "What is the difference between silk and cotton?" I'm totally taken aback by the question. I told him: "eh, silk is produced by silk worm and cotton is by a plant." Absolutely not the answer that he is looking for. Turns out that he is trying to look for a material for his baju melayu, traditional malay costume for males, and he wants something that can keep him cool especially when the weather is so warm and humid in Singapore. Anyway, since I have the time now why not use this time to do some research? Here I am, gonna explain some basic differences between these two materials. 

Silk production

Lavae & Cocoon

As previously mentioned, silk is produced by lavae of Silkmoth. Bombyx mori is the most commonly used silkmoth to obtain silk. Another silkmoth Samia ricini, is also used but at a smaller percentage. Silkmoth undergo 4 distinct stages namely, eggs, larvae, pupea and adult, to complete metamorphosis. In the second stage, larvae will spin to form cocoons in which they will develop further into pupae and eventually emerge as a hairy moth.


Silk that made up the cocoons were excreted from these larvae's spinneret and it can be extracted from cocoon after boiling, which kills the larvae, to soften the cocoon(cocoon are usually harden by the larvae's saliva). Since each cocoon is produced by a single thread of silk, the length of this thread can stretch up to 900 meters!

Wonder why price of genuine silk is rocket high? The steps in boiling and extracting the silk requires experienced hands to ensure that the thread remains as a piece. Broken silk are worth much lesser. Since the process of obtaining silk cannot be overtake by machines, the cost of obtaining silk stills remained high. 

Silk fiber: 80% of it is made up by natural protein called fibroin and 20% sericin. It is a bad conductor of heat hence external heat has less tendency to penetrate fiber and body heat are hard to escape. Keep one cool in summer and warm in winter. In my opinion, this will definitely be a great material for baju if money isn't a limitation. Although it may be desirable to have clothes made up of silk, but the inflexibility of the material makes one hard to maneuver around. Hence it is advisable to make a baju with a certain percentage of cotton to ensure that one can stretch around easily.  

Cotton production

Cotton Plant

Cotton is produced by species Gossypium. It is the portion that surrounds the seed to serve as a protection. As compared to Silk, the production of cotton requires lesser effort to monitor. The harvesting process is also much simpler. As the demand for cotton increases, technology has made it easier to harvest, process and turn cottons into fabric. Here is a video of how cotton can be made into jeans. 

舞蹈社的尾声

从几天前，我已经不再是舞蹈社的会员了。其实被迫离开的我并不觉得可惜，心里有的却是一种解脱。我想一年前我就应该有所觉悟，不应该再执迷不悟的想要让舞蹈社自立，不让奸人所害。一年来的所有努力如今就象过眼云烟，一拍而散。想了两天，唯独可惜的是建立的友谊没法继续延续。一切的回忆，美好的常景，将被埋葬因为再也没有人会眷恋这些事。我决定了放下记忆，友谊。从此划清界限。

Difference between Thosai and Prata

Having so much free time during work allows me to do some research on the above topic. This caught my attention as I was browsing through Plus.bigdeal for some dinning deals and this prata buffer stood up. However, I don't what's the difference between the 3 products that they offer - Prata, Naan and Thosai (Dosa). Here I am, making this clear for all of us!

Thosai - Indian Pancake that is relatively thin and similar to crepes. Obviously, the dough that is used is very different. Thosai is mainly made up of rice and lentils that are crushed into fine grains, soaked in water overnight. Nutrition in rice - 80% carbohydrates in which 1.3% are dietary fiber or carbohydrates that human cannot digest. Nutrition in lentils - 71% carbohydrates in which 21% are dietary fiber and 30% Proteins. Both ingredients used in Thosai contains almost or zero fats! Thosai will therefore make a good breakfast!

Naan - These are basically flatbread. Unlike Thosai, they are made from dough, hence contains gluten and yeast. The dough is then mould into circular shapes before placing it in an oven. Main ingredients of Naan includes flour, yeast and yogurt. 76% of flour contains carbohydrates and 10% of protein. Yogurt contains 22% fats, 43% Carbohydrates and 35% proteins. Just like any other bread, one will feel bloated easily after several bites on Naan due to the presence of gluten and yeast.


Prata - All time favorite breakfast loved by most Singaporeans. The difference between Naan and prata is that prata do not contain yogurt and it was fry on a hot flat grill instead of heating in an oven. The dough is swirled in circular motion to create thin and translucent layer before placing on the flat grill. The sides of the prata are folded in to generate the multi-layer texture once it hits the grill top.

After this research, to make my $4.90 worth, I will be tackling all the Thosai! No gluten nor yeast to make me feel bloated! Also, it is about time that I packed up and get ready to exercise!

聚餐

又到了女朋友聚餐的时候！我们光顾的是位于Bukit Batok 的NOOK. 看似普通的店面其实另有玄机。它其实就是新加坡第一间DIY的煎饼！就好比去麦当当吃早点一样，但现在你能够画出你想要的图案并且吃了它，享受制作的过程。 让我们看看那天的成果吧！

接近午餐时分，吃早饭的也人随之离开把座位慢慢空出来。

简单的介绍点餐的基本

可爱的Yan Ping

那天我们主要的目的是想庆祝Joanna的生日。这也是我们迟来的礼物。

干杯！

启动！

想要制造混乱的局面但还是不够乱！

加以补充

哈哈。其实乱涂鸦不适一件难事。但想翻过煎饼就真不是那么简单了。

Yvonne 和 Yan Ping!

千成煎饼制造中！

煎饼蛋糕出炉！！

寿星婆灿烂的笑容

起刀，向可爱的煎饼切去。（真惨忍啊~~~）

它的体内

Yvonne 勇敢的挑战千成，一口咬下去！

那天我们点的是香蕉，巧克力，班兰，原味的。香蕉口味很香醇，比起剩下的口味更可口。浓浓的巧克力味也可以打动女孩的心。班兰味也不错，吃不腻。原味的呢就少了煎饼香喷喷的气味。除了以上的口味，他们也提供草莓味的。虽然没法尝试草莓味的，但鲜艳的粉红色感觉也不错。

到了尾声，我想说NOOK 其实是个建立感情的好地方。但这种经验一次就足够了。所以我不回再去了！

Caller Shift

Its the caller shift again! Excited to be back and hope my results today will still be okay. Let me crack that Egg!

恭喜发财

蛇年到了！今年将会有不一样的经验，我妈决定带我们去抢上第一炷香！希望一切都可以顺利进行！

2013：明天一定会更好

心血来潮，想在我的小小世界里涂鸦一番。

新的一年到了，我并没有像之前这般兴奋许下一年内向达成的目标。只是心想，我很高兴2012的人生，就算2013年没来我也没所谓。

虽然是迟了些但我想好好说说2012的成就！

年头时，我表演了！在台上的感觉很好，虽然不能清楚的看到观众的表情，但掌声中不难发现他们的兴奋。表演完了，我瞬间变回了普通的自己。一分钟的荣耀很可贵但我不贪恋这感觉因为我更喜欢自己躲在人群中的模样。人生只有一次，我要好好的发觉自己所以一定要尝试不一样的新鲜事。随着日子的流失，我终于鼓起勇气剪短了两年的感情。两年说长不长，说短不短。这两年我得到了很多教训，也学了很多，只希望能遇到对的人。本以为结束一感情之后会单身一会儿，人算不如天算啊。在两个月后，我跟另一位在一起了!! 现在还过得很开心！事业方面没什么进展。希望今年我的事业运会好吧！让我找到一个能让我带点钱回家的兼职公。届接着是我的21岁生日！过得很开心，因为有好多人来，礼物也收得多多！哈哈。就这样我的2012年结束了。

在2013年里，我只希望自己的运气会好转，让我所有的愿望都能达成。最后想要说句口头禅：明天一定会更好！！

幸福的21生日

知道什么是幸福吗？不是拥有豪华的生活或大把的现金而是知道有人珍惜你的存在。我不是一直都知道自己的价值。从小我就觉得自己缺乏爱，很希望父母能给与我像对姐弟一样的注视。所以我的生活一直都是为了父母而活。拥有很不一样逻辑的我认为自己并没有存在的价值。即使我现在人间蒸发，父母朋友也只是心疼几天之后还是能慢慢的恢复正常生活。但渐渐的长大了才了解这世界真的很大。在我埋怨自己生活不够暖和时，有些小孩根本就没有家更别说是家庭的温暖。很多事情我不想面对因为我知道我不能承受。如果你对世界没希望那什么也无法打败你无惧无畏的心灵。因为没有期望所以没有失望也就不会对世界绝望。

但过了21岁生日我才了解到自己有多么的希望我的朋友能永远陪在我的身边。生日前几日我跟女友们一块儿出门。我们到了很多吃的地方，到最后来到了酒吧，交换圣诞礼物。虽然那天的行程很简单，就是吃吃喝喝，但我过得很开心。因为有她们。从来都不觉得自己很重要，只是那天我感觉不同了。原来有人珍惜你是一种求之不得的感觉。无论以后发生什么事，我绝对不会放开她们。因为朋友得来不易，友情一定要好好地呵护。