Pictures - 20th Birthday

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Chloe Parfum From Nigel

Birthday -20th

reading my past posts reminds me of how old i am now. The oldest post was like in 2006 and now I am in 2011, with my birthday over just yesterday.

Thousand and one surprises were given to me this 20th birthday, the best birthday in years! Firstly was the NTU gang's jacket, next Geckngoh bluff me into a girl's night out which turns out to be another birthday surprise with the same gang. Chocolate cake from Awfully chocolate, brought in by Ming Liang when he fake his toilet trip. Next is from KK and Phylisia, my best girlfriend. Both were anticipating something that might happen on my birthday. Upon saying that i am not going to hold anything, both gives the sad face. "i thought u will have something like mahjong" said KK. Anyway, last sun, 17th, Nigel gave me cupcakes with my name spelled with ICING on top! SO SWEET.....  hahas. simply love it. he told me he couldn't come to my actual day to cut cake. and what a dumb dumb i am to have believed his words! Yesterday when i went home, he was there in my dark room with lightsticks arranged in my name and "happy Birthday". it suddenly stuck me. Am i Worth? but i guess i have already gotten my answers. During work ytd, My colleagues had given me a small little cake too!

For the million times i feel blessed and loved, this is the first that i feel "its good to stay alive". And Really. Its like the little light that suddenly came out from nowhere, give me direction for a better future. I want to stay alive! I want to delicate my life to these people who had gone through the trouble to make my birthday so wonderful!.

Birthday Celebration

Ytd, 14-12-11, a group of my NTU mates came up with a surprise for my birthday. That instance, I felt so loved and so fortunate to have these people around me. When the cake came with two candles lighted on it, I feel that the whole world must be envy of me. I have never imagined being worthy of people to make surprises or even celebrate my birthday because I always tell myself, I am just a year nearer to my death. However, I really hope that every year I can spend time with my group of friends. I need to thank them so much for making my birthday such a magical one. I will never forget these moments! Thank you, DMKWLGC.

Now I am imagining, listening to graduation by Vitamin C, what would it be like when we all graduate 4 years later. Will we still cling to this relationship we developed? Or will it just be a chapter of our life as we flipped the pages? Life is full of unexpected, however I will still be optimistic and believe in friends forever. I hope you do too because without these people, our life will not be complete. Once again, I pray that the wishes that I wished for will come true.

Blood Type

太邪门了！这也未必太准了吧。我男友是O型血的他也最讨厌我正面对他，小小事就会发脾气!而我是AB型的。之前发觉有个朋友是双面人之后就跟他绝交了。说真的我不是一个爱发脾气的人所以会闹到绝交也还真是不容易啊。有兴趣看血型漫画就到：这儿来看吧！

是我想太多

事情真的有如此简单吗？是我想太多吗？

我男友的妈妈要请了我去她的生日聚餐。这代表什么吗？我很惊讶，一时不知该怎么反应。本来我是拒绝了但后来我妈叫我去。她说只是一餐，如果你有想跟他继续走下去这一餐是一定要吃的。我很还怕。我现在都不知道我到底有没有把他当男朋友。少时间的见面，没兴趣的交谈。我不知道还能拖多久。爱情就像鲜花，绽放的时间短暂，枯萎的收场。但这次的餐饭我应该可以借机找到我要的答案。

我不了解我到底喜欢什么，爱什么。总觉得很多事情是没永远的。现在把你喜欢的食物写下，过了半年再看看你是否还爱着它们？我只知道我的感情永远不会停留不前。不知是爱得不够深还是我爱我自己胜过一切？在还没解答时，我想冷静。冷静地看看这世界。我相信我能活出自我！

明天会更好！

那年，我们一起追的女孩

看了这部电影让我感触良多。其一，我很后悔为何没好好珍惜以前青春的日子。虽然现在也不是很老，但毕竟都过了玩乐的年龄，需要认真地对待生活的每一天。其二，是很羡慕女主角能有这么多童年。

让我说说对这部戏的感想吧！我喜欢女主角！我觉得她说话很真，不像在演戏。故事一开始很有趣，介绍方式也很独特。最喜欢的就是阿和的热狗掉的那一幕！令我最难忘的应该是沈佳宜在雨中喊“笨蛋，大笨蛋！你什么都不懂！”的那一幕。我相信这也是真情流露的一幕。总之很感人！我给这部戏8.8分！我现在最想做的是去看那个小说！

Birth of DMKWLGC.blogspot.com

Congratulations! DMKWLGC.blogspot is finally operating! this is a blog that records the little moments the NTU clique had together whether is it in school or outside! Hurray. Show us your support by following our blog! (:

December Schedule

终于考完了！经过一连串的临时抱佛脚，熬夜，睡眠不足，没味口，担心害怕，今天统统都结束了！！！虽然还是有些难过但考都考完了，再想这些也都没什么用！就让我好好的用功玩乐吧！ 在下个月内我可有好长一篇东西要做。就在以下说个明白：
1日: 希望能如愿的开工
2日：还在考虑要不要去bbq
6-8日：在学校过夜
10日：跟女友出去
11日：跟中学同学出门
13日：每逢星期二有练舞
20日：我生日－但还没想到要做些什么
24日：去圣诞聚餐
真不敢想象我的12月会如此的精彩。好开心啊！！！期待期待。(:

明天会更好

老天希望你在上面能够眷顾一些需要你的人。今天突然了解了原来人可以过得那么苦。真正的痛苦不是来自肉体而是来自心灵。希望以下这一首歌能够让大家度过难关。

 

小沈阳

无意间看到了这歌。听了之后心情曼愉快的！

考试

考试也考了一半！今天我还真不知道要说些什么。感觉轻松了很多。但我还有一科要考。 看现在就这样吧。

心机

很久没来了，有点怀念我这个老地方。

今天我朋友对我敞开胸怀，告诉了我他懊恼的事。还说要和他朋友绝交。说着，他说很意外的能和我聊这么久。至于原因呢。他说有些人很聪明知道在话中挑他的缺点来捉他的痛脚。但我不会。简单来说就是我太笨了，完完全全不知道怎么在他的话中挑刺。别以为我很不高兴哦，其实这也是一件好事对吧？毫无心机的跟别人交谈。我不是很厉害说话，设计别人，像在人家身上得到好处。我只是很真心的想要跟每个人做朋友，谈谈心事。但我知道这样是可遇不可求的。在我交过的无数个朋友当中，能谈心的也就少过手指能数的。而这几个朋友也不是说要谈心就能谈心的，还要想想他们到底有没有空啦，和想不想听我说。总之有太多的顾虑让我无法说出。

好啦。今天读了一整天的书，真的很困了。晚安啦，我亲爱的日记。

发泄

在温习上遇到瓶颈了！该是时候休息休息。但是呢，我很像休息了很久了！我所谓吧，就让我一个人自言自语。你有听说自言自语也是一种疏解压力的方法吗？何不尝试面对镜子跟自己说说话，或许你还会领悟到莫些事呢。不说了。是时候面对我的经济学了。我到现在还是很后悔为何当初不拿掉这科？真是害惨我了。

Speechless

I guess I should say that today is the MOST embarrassing and unluckiest day in the past few years! I have always lied to myself that one day my luck will turn good and all the suayness that I am experiencing now would mean nothing. Today proved me wrong! this suayness will be clinging to me for the rest of my life!


This afternoon I was suppose to have an interview over at NUS for an administration job. At 12.30pm, the sky is a little cloudy no sign of thunderstorm. 1.15pm, I walk out of Clementi mall and heavy rain pour. My sister and I still went to board bus to NUS. However, when we are there, it wasn't just heavy rain, its practically thunderstorm! Raindrops were flying or rather SPRAYING in ALL directions! and with this little umbrella, it can't shelter us to ICUBE. Therefore we choose to wait at the bus stop. 30mins passed, Boss told me if I couldn't get my ass up there, then we can re-arrange another appointment. DEFINITELY. Another 5mins passed, the rain somehow became smaller. At least the rain drops are flying in the same direction. And so we decided to walk up to ICUBE. 1step, 2 steps, 3 steps and next I realize I am stepping on my right foot, BARE. My sandal gave way! at this crucial time. Left me with no choice, we walk back to the bus stop. People are STARING at me. Why would such thing happen to me? Although this is not the first time my shoe/slipper give way, but at least they were less humiliating. First the RAIN and then BARE foot walking in the rain. Whats worst? I was so moody after that. Although I manage to make a temporary sandal to help me walk but it didn't make me feel better. Just how suay one can get? I heard people say, God is fair. U will have your suay moments and lucky ones throughout your life and their quantities and quality will be the same. When will my lucky moments come?



Anime Festival 2011 @ SunTec City convention hall 402, 403!
Its really cool to see all these characters come to live. Brings back memories of how crazy I used to be! Can u identify some of the characters like I ?

re-blogging

Just today, or yesterday I have got tracking from both http://truthofdarkness.blogspot.com/ and http://wkhan10.blogspot.com/. Looks like these two good buddies of mine have started this whole blogging AGAIN! and this is certainly a good thing! More readers and now these two mates. This blog is going to start the whole trend of blogging again.

A little note to WKhan: I have tried the app on blogger but it is way too lousy! we should just stick to this conventional way of blogging, through comp. Anyway, Iphone has stop all Google apps if i am not wrong so.... in the future when there are other blogging apps available, u might want to change to android! simply BECAUSE ANDROID RULEZ! MUAHAHA..

To TruthOfDarkness: Yeah! we did not talk for the past, hmmmm few months I guess? if not YEARS? but I am hoping its not that long. Glad to know that u are starting your manhood period, the army. Hope everything is good with you! (: Maybe when u read this you will want to meet up soon? Anyway, you have got my number so TEXT ME!

11.11.11

不知道这么一个幸福的一天你们都在做什么呢？？我知道！一定都忙着工作吧。为何不拿几分钟看看这个奇特的一天背后的意义呢？

我在网络找了找，原来１１１１１１这一天在洋人的世界里是不好的。据说什么号码都有好跟不好的征兆但唯独１１没有。也就这样被称之为邪恶的一天。而据说在１１／１１／１１就会有一道门打开。而我当然也不知道会发生什么事。但是就有很多鬼洋片会在这天上演。不过在这么特殊的一天就让我们想点好事吧。比方说花语的１１１１１１就是指一心一意，一生一世，一辈子只爱你一个人。呵呵，是不是很贴心呢？你们还在等什么！还不把这句话跟一束花送给你最亲爱的她？

加油咯。愿有情人能够终成眷属！

病了

大家好！很久没写了。功课繁忙请勿责怪。今天我生病了。我想应该是昨天我太兴奋和太多柠檬水，搞得我喉咙很不舒服。如果明天不好那就的去看医生咯，真要命。

晚餐时我约了Dickson和Lilian吃晚餐。约好了在Canteen A 吃饭但我却搭车到hall1。来到餐厅才发觉来错了地方！结果就有搭车回CanteenA。

我看我真是名副其实的笨蛋！在学校都三个月了就连东南西北都不知道在哪儿。我看我假期应该打工花点钱在导盲犬上。至少我可以省掉走冤枉路的力气。
不说了， 我今天需要早点休息。希望明天能痊愈！

步步惊心看完了！很感人。“请你不要在我忘记你之前忘记我。”但最后他还是先忘了。 以下我想让以后的我能再看这部电视剧。请观赏！

我的赖皮女友

我觉得这首歌真的超棒！让我能感受爱情的力量！

Blood type comic

 Ytd went out with Ester! hees. Know this AB girl while working at NUH. We clique super well when I first saw her. She was sitting outside of her laboratory while reading her Korean textbook. It all started out with that book and then slowly we chat more and more! Simply because my job was too slack. Hence she is like a close sister to me. There was once she borrowed the blood type comic book and together we went to discuss the accuracy of it! It was so funny! Love the time we had. Now that both of us are studying, interaction lessen. ): but its okay. somehow we are linked together by Blood type! According to statistic, only 5% of the population have AB blood. Hahs! Recently she went Korea for holiday and bought me this AB blood type character keychain! Muahahaha.. Its so CUTE! I have a pair of it.. so will be actively searching for AB blood people. So each of us can hold the character and act like communicating! Omg. i think I am crazy. And all thanks to Royston. He and his lousy thoughts drilling into my mind! anyway, somehow he became my EX part-time boyfriend after ytd's chat. And this is the shortest relationship ever!! 1hr?! lols! This is just for laugh! Talk to many rubbish already. Lols. 

You may click to enlarge the photos~~

                                   

Isn't this Cute?~ 

Inside. When AB marry an AB

This shows what happens when 2 AB come together. Alien words fly all over!

How Blood A and B handle LOVE.

Although I feel that I fall mostly in Blood B for this but knowing that I am an Angel is cool too!

This shows how weird AB are. (:  No one knows what I am thinking.! 

离题

就让我来发发牢骚！妈妈真的是太太太溺爱弟弟了。今早妈妈忘了买土地爷爱喝的咖啡，就吵着要我们下去买。我们就不愿意啊。大姐说我们还没洗澡，如果急就让弟弟下去买。我很是赞成，因为懒惰呗。但我妈却说：“弟弟不会买等会儿买错了不是浪费钱吗？”问题来了。你们一定以为我弟弟还小，顶多十四岁。大家猜错了！我弟弟可是十八岁了！十八岁的一个大男孩既然不知道怎么买包装咖啡！这是哪门子的笑话啊？就这样我姐跟妈理论起来：“又不是每个人一出生就会买东西。不学怎么会呢？为什么你总是只让弟弟做他懂得事而不让他接触他不懂的呢？”在这里我要说我弟弟决不是什么智障儿。他脑袋清醒，四肢发达，现在在理工学院就读。我妈就是看不惯我们成天想“欺负”他而常常跟我们“作对”。　之后姐姐说不过她也就丢下一句：“好啦我去”。　但我妈也没就此结束她问了我弟一句：“你会倒垃圾吗？会还不去倒！”嗨哟我的天啊！这根本就不是问题啊！我现在都还在想，我妈妈到底知不知道问题在哪里？根本就是因为她只让我弟弟做他会的东西啊！！！　

这也让我想起昨天她荒谬的回答。昨天我去见工了。是一个补习中心的工作。老板说他需要我能在补习中心待一年因为一旦开了我的班如果换老师会对学生不好。考试期间也不能停。就因为这个条件让我苦恼了很久。回家我想找妈妈聊聊，还真没想到她给我的回答是：“兼职工不都应该这样吗？最少也要做个一两年吧？”　所谓对牛谈情，她根本就没给我意见。在无可忍的地步下我说了：“你不觉得你说的没帮助吗？你既然拿我和你朋友相比？你不觉得你应该问问我是不是需要这份工？学业上会有问题吗？不然去找一些短暂的工？”其实这也是些我爱听的话。我不是说她一定要这样说但我没想到她既然会说我根本不想做工！　算了，一切都过了。

心如止水

很多事情并没有想象中的容易。之前有人告诉我，两人在一起不只是靠感觉，还需要考虑到到底对方适合自己，两人性格是否会起冲突。另外还有家人，文化及宗教信仰。我原本很天真的以为爱可以包容一切，让两人顺利地走下去。但往往事情都不是这样。应该说这是我的一厢情愿。爱情不是面包，饥饿时不能充饥。它只会带来不开心的回忆。现在的我心如止水，什么事也无法造涟漪。以下为你们介绍一首动听的歌曲，《三寸天堂》。记得歌曲是用心去聆听的！

爱情真伤

回到家的感觉着好，心情没那么沉重了。

今夜的我感觉很凄凉，想找个人谈谈心事但却没人在身旁。我发了短信给我朋友，但没把心事说出。这只是我一厢情愿的想把事情说出来但没考虑到他想不想听。我很自私，我想利用他对我的喜欢。但我最终还是把话题扯远了。我不想人家为我担心，为我烦恼。我有尝试发短信给Nigel,但我什么也没等到。没回短信也没电话。这几天都这样。我们为了不存在的病因吵了，之后他也就没回我短信了。真不知道是我的错还是他的敏感。

爱情就是这样，来得太快也走得匆匆。我太小看爱情带来的杀伤力，等到精疲力尽时才后悔跳入了这个陷阱。人都一样，总是在受伤之后才后悔。曾经有人这么问我，：“如果给你一个特意功能，你最想要什么？”那时我的答案是什么也不要，或是想要能让我瞬间移动的能力。这样就能环游世界啦!哈哈。但现在我现在最想要的是能看见未来，每个人的未来都是未知数。这个社会有太多的选择让我们迷失方向。如果我能看见未来，我就能够为自己选择一个对我伤害最小的路走。

晚上的我很喜欢胡乱瞎猜。也许是因为我的活力都用完了，现在只剩下我清静我脑袋。想说什么就是什么。也许现在的我最真。我很渴望找到一个能为我一心一意付出的人但我却不想付出。很傻对不对？不想付出但却可望爱。我真的很自私。今天就让我任性一次吧。

Nigel 终于回信了，但我没回。就当我睡了吧。很晚了，你也睡吧！

Diarrhea

I had this little problem of having loose stools every other day. The first time I had it was about 1.5 years ago? or slightly longer. Anyway, I found out that my body don't seem to digest some of the food I take. That day I was working, felt a sudden pain or contract like feeling in my stomach, went to toilet and as the liquid stools came out, a papaya smell accompanied with it. I took a look and saw my stools were orange and disgusting. Conclusion, the papaya I ate the previous day wasn't digested and came out like how it was chewed. 

I went to a specialist and it cost me $75 if I am not wrong. Anyway, the doctor told me there can only be two possibilities. 1) bacteria in my intestine depleted hence not enough microbes to help digest the food. 2) Cancer. He added that for my age cancer is not possible. I understand why he said that because for cancer to occur, mutations must happen. And mutations came with exposure of carcinogenic stuff and usually takes time for mutation to occur. Therefore, it can only be the first reason. I tried taking Yakult after that but I guess it doesn't help. Constipation still occur, loose stools released every other day. I didn't go back for more consultations with the doctor. First is money, second is no willing to. 

Recently, I tried to stop eating chilli. And I guess this helps. At least now I experience some solid stools now and then. But I simply love chilli too much! How can someone survive without chilli? it whet's one appetite. I have to stop! Just now, i had loose stools again. I msg Nigel and he is like super duper concern about it. That makes me wonder, i told him this situation before and he cared no less. Why suddenly this reaction? I told him about the money issue and cancer and bacteria. I guess all he heard was the money and cancer. So he offered to lend me and then ask me to go check up tml. Arrgh. I have my principles! and the first one says, NO BORROWING of money!. yeah, and I don't intend to break it in near future. Till now, I still haven't reply his " Go tml". One shouldn't take life or death too seriously. I can't predict the future, and therefore I feel that if its time for me to go, I will have to go. Nothing is gonna stop it. 

Such a pessimistic person. Yeah. And I agree to it. Next year I will go for the check up. Not because of cancer. But because cleaning up my backside after the loose stools are simply too irritating! lols. 

Goodnights babe. 

亲爱的微薄，很久没来谈心了。跟你说，昨天dickson跟我一块儿塔地铁回家哦。我们聊了很多。我很犹豫，他是个好人但我还是没办法把我被骗的事情说出来。好像是太笨了，怕被人笑话。也太自卑了吧！算了，都过了这么久，我很想也没那么生气了。都怪我自作聪明吧！

就写到这里咯。我希望我的每一天都会过得很充实，很快乐。

童话故事

有时候我就在想我的浪漫童话故事何时会发生呢？何时我的白马王子会骑着白马到我的面前伸手拉我上马，两人幸福的过着快乐的日子。我的白马王子呢要非常的疼我，爱护我。喜欢我乱耍脾气，我的笨，我的没大脑，爱我的一切一切。而我也爱他的所有缺点！ 哈哈。我总觉得他离我不远。你相信一见钟情吗？就像白雪公主那样，在莫一个晚上和王子跳了舞就彼此相爱，过着快乐的日子。

人总得在做梦之后苏醒吧。我的美丽幻想也是时候藏进我的小小世界里。大家请你们再次收藏好我的秘密哦。很爱你们！

First Job call From AIA.

Thought I could make it but its at Tanjong pagar! Traveling time would be twice my working time. They are looking for telemarketers. Speak on the phone, do surveys. BTW, that woman has got a nice voice and is less demanding than Malaysians. My opinion, she's a Singaporean. Hahs!
Anyway, this is a good start. 1 call and i guess subsequent calls will come! and hopefully I can get interesting jobs. God bless me! I know you will.

在下午一点钟：

蠢死了。我看我真是世界一大蠢材怎么这么容易就被人骗了呢？如果有蠢人俱乐部我一定会被邀请当主席的。咳，真的笨死了！

下午三点钟：

我又在想昨天本的举动！。 我干吗要心软啊？白白的把钱送给别人。现在你身无分文了吧！咳哟，别说了吧。越说越感到自卑。我发誓我再也不回带卡去这种地方了。

晚上十点钟：

过了一天的挣扎，我好像没那么自责了。很像是因为我把我财产的数目告诉了我男友。感觉上心里的大石被放下了。

晚上十二点：

我真的很后悔。很后悔我昨天作的决定。面对今天的账单我跟加感到惭愧。已经有两个月没绞电话费了。而我也没这么多钱。该怎么办呢？做工啊！还能这么办呢？我得好好找份工了。

我好笨哦！为什么这么容易就被别人牵着鼻子走？今天我去了瘦身中心!你没看错我真的去了那种有钱人的地方。我是通过933有优惠去的。但我却还是被骗了$321！我没当下给这么多就一半咯。咳！我真的很后悔。我有去阻止但卡都进了机器里，拿不回了。做了第一个疗程，还真没什么效果。我觉得我真的傻辟了！怎么耳根这么软呢？我现在还真不敢跟别人说我去了那里。算了。我这傻人应该有傻福吧。现在我只是在等援助金到。我的家产现在只有$82! 可不可怜啊？

好啦。我很感谢我有这个微薄来让我倾诉。这里记载了我重重的傻事。我可真笨。真的好笨！算了啦。笨就笨咯。笨过之后才会聪明嘛！呵呵。在座的各位请你们不要揭穿我哦。名女感谢您！

大家晚上好！今天又和大学同学去吃晚餐了。我很喜欢我们在一起的时光。世界很大，但在茫茫人海中找到能谈心的对象还真不容易。我会很珍惜我们的友谊。但什么多过友谊都不可能！

Presenting you my latest favorite singer! Qi Wei!

欢迎欢迎！欢迎大家又准时来到我的微薄。虽然我知道这里写的都很无聊。但就将就一点吧。昨天练舞了。很多人没来。感觉上很想每个人都很像缺乏兴趣了。但我还是很热爱舞蹈。喜欢到暴了!但是呢，我并不是天生的舞者。我没有柔软的骨骼，也没有舞者应该有的性感。我觉得我只是一个很普通的人。什么都不好的人。昨天我亲爱的老师还说我像一个ｂａｂｙ！我想笑但又想哭！这也是所谓的哭笑不得吧。好啦。就写到这里。

First English language post since several months ago!? Anyway, this morning I am such a good girl. Helped to vacuum and mop the floor. The tiles are SPARKING clean now!

Today is Ding Yang's Birthday! I don't think i will remember him after I graduate from NTU. Therefore, i should write exactly who he is. We joined salsa at the same time and we have the exact fair skin! Thats all. I shall publish this little present that I make for him in 15mins. Seriously, I am proud of myself. I have unleashed this little designer in me and made this picture for him. Oops, i think i should make it more specific. I searched google for the lollipop and and added the fonts myself. Wait, does this make this picture mine? Errrr..... hmmmm.. I think I shouldn' t take others credit.

Ta Dannnnnnnnn~ Cute little photo. (:

大家早上好！又到了废话时间！这几天你都在干嘛呢？昨天我和理工学院的同学见面了！一起吃晚餐。很开心，好久没见到他们，很想念在一起的日子。三年里要不是他们在身边，我的日子也不会这么充实，愉快。Dalston 现在在当兵，Charlene 还在poly. Lisa 去了SIM， WaiEng 也在PSB 修读，ShiNing 则在工作上冲刺！我呢？我还在为我漫长的读书生涯唉声叹气。四年的时间，我该怎么过呢？不说了。我还有测验要读。我想我这几年都应该会在书堆里过。

Ugly Truth

现在已经很晚了但我还是想抽点时间写写今天得知的Ugly Truth！前些我不是有参加露营吗？在那里既然发生了难以想象的事！莫莫人和莫莫人接吻，亲热！虽然我没亲眼看到但句句属实！而且更惊爆的是有两对人都这么做！莫莫男人还有一个交往了六年的女友。而另一对的莫莫女也有男友！晴天霹雳啊，他们在我心中的完美形象就这么毁了。好了，其实也不是什么大事就出轨呗。都什么时代了？不能这么封建了。

在冲凉时，我突然有个想法。我想开多一个微搏。这个微薄主要是以录音为主，让我为大家解爱情问题！当那时，就拜托大家帮帮忙宣传一下咯！在这儿，名女向各位说声多谢！！

呵呵！大家早上好，现在时间是1028分。昨天的你开心吗？今天是全新的一天哦！所以不管你昨天做了些什么，今天也要开开心心的过！俗话说的好，开心也是一天，不开心也是一天。为何不开开心心的过呢？哦，这是俗话吗？怎么比较向现代话！哈哈！我发觉我好无聊哦。但是没关系！只要有人对着这银幕发笑我就满足了。

今早我很早就起身了，被爸爸吵醒。我发觉我全家人都有点变态。总看不惯有人的一天比他们晚开始所以如果你睡得比较迟一些些，就有人来你床是出怪招要你起身。就算你抗议但只要你有意识的回答问题他们就会放过你。就像今天，我爸近来了：阿洁怎么还没起身？今天不用上课吗？我迷迷糊糊中回答：“没学校”又回去睡了。别以为他就这么让我睡了。他还继续问:"没学校？你学校难不成倒了吗？”哦！我快疯了。之后就回答一句：是没课。他或许故意没听见就一直跟我姐吱吱咋咋的说我学校倒了！我姐结果受不了说了一句"shut up lah" 而我爸爸就像只受了打击的小鸟，在一帮发笑。呵呵。现在想起来我爸还真可爱。刚刚在Facebook和大姐聊了这件事，她说她还真怕爸爸大发雷霆呢！但还好，我爸有点古怪不当一会儿事。

好啦，我也应改开始我今天的复习！总觉得提不起劲儿。该怎么办呢？

昨天我做了一格决定。我决定在身上携带着一本笔记本记录一些我觉得不可思议的事。就像现在，跟着lilian来到学校咖啡厅后面读书。等了好一会儿都没位子。这时lilian却说要和他人一起坐。我还真有点惊讶。Lilian总是给我一种很高高在上的感觉。有车，而且还住在bungalow!好夸张。总之她这举动让我觉得她不但没架子还很好呢！我既羡慕又佩服。这样的好女孩到底哪里找呢？？ 我是否也能跟她一样？

今天第一次和大学同学一同出游！也不算是出游，就一群人去看了abduction 呗。之后就到TCC喝茶聊天。我这个乐天派也是笑柄，哈哈。现在想想我还真大胆。过了今天我还真喜欢这一组人。哦，忘了说有哪些人了。Dickson, Ming Liang, Wilson, AhKai(Kai Wei), GeckNogh 和Lilian. 呵呵，还真是一群好玩的对象。我在这儿很诚心的希望lilian 和dickson, ahKai 和 Gecknogh 能在一起。这两人还真是不折不扣的好男人！当让如果可以我也想要留给自己，但还是算了吧。人总不能这么自私对吧？偶尔也应该把好的事物让给别人。啊，怎么他们变成事物了？还真是越描越黑。不说了。现在要入正题了。我刚才目睹了一件好人好事。

我这个人其实很自以为是，从来都不相信底下还有人情味。但眼前这三人就证明了我是错的。在搭乘地铁回家时，我站在这三个热的面前。最左边的大约４０岁，中华籍女子，中间的约２０岁，马来籍女子，而最右边的约２０岁外籍男子。中华籍女子拿着ｉｔｏｕｃｈ，挥挥手要男生帮她操作，男生二话不说的帮她。之后他们三人有说有笑的。我观察到他们手上都拿着同一个袋子，这也证明了他们是认识的。过了１０分钟，我始终没听见那女士说话，一直只是比手划脚。我起初还以为她不会英语！这时我心想：“如果是我，有人在我身边晃来晃去我一定被烦死了。”但这念头每残留太久，我发觉原来那女士是个哑巴。现在我非常敬佩那两人。他们愿意和残疾人士交往，沟通，还一同出游。这真是太难得的好事。他们成功的体现出人间尚有人情这句话。我希望利用这个故事呼吁所有热血的年轻人要以这两人围榜样。不分年龄种族的为这些残疾人士带来欢笑与快乐。所谓人人快乐，我也就快乐。

工作的某一天

现在我才了解原来电影的题材都是来自现实世界。我昨天很伤心，因为没能去露营。但我只后把300远花了我心里才好过一点。电影不是常说女人解决痛苦的方法有两种吗？不是暴饮暴食就是去大买特卖。一直以来我以为我是吃的那一类，但过了昨天我才知道原来我是花钱大王！ 今早起身是我才真正的后悔 作晚草率的决定。这件是的发生让我了解，心情那过是就应该做一写让你更难过的事。这样你就不会在去想之前发身的事了。用英文说应该比较流利。“The best way to forget the pain is to do something as painful.” 现在我的钱包破了一个大洞，接下来的日子有的受了每天吃面包当三餐。真希望八月能快点到，可以拿工资。

早上发生的很多事！我应该没办法多一一写出来。今天这里活动，所以很热闹。我一到就进手术室把昨天送来的猪肝 和肠子那去解冻。我工作的地方是一间练习室。里头有十架手术台，8架麻醉机器和胃镜检查机。这里的设施很完善所以时常会有教授租这里开办学习课程。今天也不例外，也有活动，用的只是猪的器官。但今天的赞助商很不友善。她叫Jamie。她狠狠地修理我们，因为没帮她做好准备工作。但其实也不是我们的错。我们新人根本不知道她需要些什么。我很不高兴，他也像别人一样，瞧不起我的存在。还好准备功夫赶在中午时办好。也算是有惊无险。

有谁知道这世界什么感觉是最难受的？是失恋时吗？还是当你很想得到某些东西但又得不到时?我想最难受的应该是从高处狠狠甩下来的时候。 我很自信的以为我能去大学二年，但当事实摆在眼前时我却无法面对。我很惭愧，我让身边的人对我这么有信心但又让他们失望。很讨厌这样的感觉，象是力气全都不见似的。我的活力到哪里去了?!我也不知道。很迷茫。

分叉道路

人生的道路上有许多我门需要做决定的事，但我门并不知道哪个才是最正确，最开心的路。不久前我毕业了，是理工学院毕业生。以后我将会上南大就读生物学。但现在我还是不知道这是不是我所要向往的未来。在实验室工做了两个星期我体会到了辛苦，无聊和精疲力尽。所以呢，我觉得我毕业后不会在试验室里长久。我想做老师。但教的不是生物学，而是华语。 厉害吧，读生物学教华文。我太佩服我自己了。

回到刚才的话题。 我对我的人生还抱这很大的期望，我想我的人生变得很多姿多彩但有时又很矛盾觉得平淡才是幸福。 总之我们做的每个决定都不应该后悔。走的每一步棋都会给我门惊喜。所一不要置疑你的决定，我门要努力的望前冲，冲出自我！

Graduation!

Congratulations to me! I survived the 3 years in Poly and is now going to Uni!. Hopefully 3.5years later I will be celebrating my Uni graduation! Am I dreaming? Please allow me to crap. There are too many things in my mind that I would like to pour it out. I have officially quit my job over at kemin industries(Asia) Pte Ltd and will be starting my new part time job over at ASTC In June.

很久都没有写blog了。千万不要认为我已经抛弃你了，只是最近有太多事情发生，不知从何说起。总之我就很倒霉换了两份不好的工。真不知道为何我的运气会如此的差。或许我应该每天拜拜求老天让我的运气变好，出门遇贵人，事事顺心。

今天本来因该是一个很开心的一天，但又有许多事情发生。弟弟带了一帮朋友上来玩麻将，但万万没想到他既然邀了十多个好朋友上来玩。事情也就一件一件的发生了。

1）虽让有很多人到家，但却没有一个人向我爸爸问好。对他们的第一影像十分之差，真是一群没教养的小孩子啊。
2）吵吵闹闹的，嫌一桌麻将太少，坚持要开两桌。另一桌摆在神座见面，不尊敬神。
3）弟弟放下了朋友会房里玩电脑。被爸爸知道了又点生气就去了他房里逊了他一顿。
4）妈妈会来了，又大发雷霆，完全不给弟弟面子。就这样他们离开，去吃宵夜了。

我有点不高兴。不知为什么爸爸，妈妈这么偏激。弟弟的朋友之所以没打招呼是因为爸爸在房里，每人愿意进去啊。当然，这不足以造成一个理由。我对这一点也十分不满。接着，是神座的问题。在几年前爸爸和妈妈也常常带朋友回来玩麻将，有时也把麻将桌放在神座的面前。但这几年很少带人回来，因该是怕肮脏吧。总之弟弟就是有样学样。但爸爸和妈妈不这么觉得哦。他们都没想想以前做过的事。我真的很同情弟弟呢。在朋友面前受了这么大的打击。想一想如果我是他的朋友会如何呢？从此不敢踏进这个家了吧。我脑里面浮现了很多想法，但却没人听我倾诉这些事情。很似孤独呢。能跟我沟通的人到底在哪里呢？

啊，原来我这一辈子都不会得到这个人。

这么久没写了，有点怀念。今天写的并不是什么开心的事情，但却是不开心的。看来还是要求太高惹得祸！我告诉自己不能再有期望了！

映洁你要加油哦！

过了今天我才了解到，其实我还是一棵温室里的幼苗，以个还没成熟的小孩。我还需要人家保护，呵护的幼苗。今天在巴士上我不懂得保护自己，即使有多讨厌那印度人坐这么靠近自己，还是一声都没啃，仍有他一直不仅意的碰到我。很讨厌被人碰的感觉，但我今天没做任何事来反抗。我讨厌这样的自己，讨厌许要人照顾的自己。过后印度人下车了，有位陌生男子来到我身后的位子，轻声地对我说：“下次如果有人再坐这么靠近就用你的包包推回去” 他说完也跟着下车了。我的眼泪也在这时流了出来。我很感激他，心里很安慰原来世上还有好心人。我很想把这件事告诉可以跟我说话的人但我发现原来没有这个人的存在。很可悲，连倾诉的对象都没有。那我的男朋友呢？他从来都不在我许要他的时候出现，而且这感觉我只能用华文描述，根本就无法让他理解。所以我只能在这里偷偷的告诉你。

安慰自己

有人常常说，老天爷是公平，公正的。每一个人的生命都会有起起落落，跌跌撞撞的时候，只是不知是何时。今天我的老大走了。他被一个奸人所害，

I am going back to sch for SIP. as much as i dont want it, god is not letting me to choose. I have no choice. My project Crashed. Left 3 months for me to get a new project, new synopsis, new proposal! Why is it me? I always thought it was luck. Luck brought me in to this company. The people here are nice, friendly and we can get along very well. So whats wrong?! Maybe, just maybe, its not luck. Its fate. its my fate to come here and suffer this. I am not a superhero. I can't make miracle happen. Just hoping god will let supervisor come back. This is all i'm requesting.

又到了我说废话的时间！ 已经有一个多月没更新了。好怀念在这里写的心情。 下星期是Nigel的生日！

他的出现让我动摇了。我还喜欢他吗? 为什么当他唱情歌给我时我会如此感动? 仿佛自己就是女主角。 明知他是逗着我， 但我却希望我们可以回到以前， 当两人相爱的那时刻。 现在我跟nigel 在一起，为何会有如此荒谬的想法呢?是自己不喜欢他吗?还是让我再次看到那个他才有的感觉。这个感觉真奇怪， 让我不知所错。 有没有人能告诉我?

好久没写了。 都没什么值得我动笔的事。今天是我第一次一个人从他的住所走出。nigel 很不幸的病倒了。 真可怜。应该是食物中毒。上吐下泻得很厉害。脱水了。 医生说如果今晚还不好就要送入急诊室。老天一定保佑他好起来，否则就要苦了我。 哈!开个玩笑嘛，我怎么会是这种人。 无论如何， 还是希望他能好起来!

就在此停笔!

呵呵! 好兴奋啊。现在在路上去nigel 附近的地铁站。 为他准备了一个小礼物。 这可是花了我一个小时的心血呢! 放学后我可是赶着到tampines 1 购买送他的。 买了糖之后才发觉原来附近都没有买可爱的袋子。找了老半天才终于被我着到。远在天边近在眼前啊! 一走出商店我就看见有一个贩卖首饰的店，里头什么类型的袋子都有。真恨不得时间回到1小时前。害我亲爱的要在家里等我。真想快点见到他。 今天是我俩的四个月周月纪念日! 呵呵。 很恩爱吧。 别嫉妒哦。 我会把我的快乐于你分享。 很好奇我在这短时间做了什么吗? 别告诉你,让你心痒痒乱乱想! 真受不了我自己。就别卖关子，我送他一个我称之之为无敌小包糖糖。它是个小包包装着满满的糖,是一个可以一天二十四小时带在身旁的小贴物。很用心吧! 我也这么认为。呵呵，不说了。是时候看看照片了!

由于网络连线出了一点小差错，照片不能放上网。那就等下次我有心情时再放咯!请期待我的到来吧!

雨过天晴了!早上传了简讯说我对我所说的话很后悔。他很可爱呢！即然说自己大人有大量，不跟我计较。也好，我们这样就少了摩擦。

问我为什么喜欢他，我也不知道啊。就跟他在一起时很自然。他很体贴，就算我什么也不说他也能知我心。有时他很呆！明明已经摆出很生气的样子但他却不闻不问。因该可以说我们俩是阴差阳错才会在一起。他是一个不会说中文的华人。而我是一个除了华语什么也不明白的新加坡人。很可笑吧！他的朋友曾经问我我们是怎么沟通的。其实我也不知道。或许就是用singlish 吧。很奇妙两人是如何走在一起。我会好好珍惜这个属于我的爱情。因为有他，我才会活得如此快乐。

很感谢Nigel 带给我的一切！

我好想有点过分。现在都不知道该如何跟nigel沟通。他认为我很不体谅他。很失望呢！原来他是这么看我的。今天是kuanhon 让我意识到自己有多么想要抱紧自己的爱人。带着好玩的心情跟他说我或许会移情别恋，他既然开始对我失望。我埋怨他没时间跟我聊天，但他却说我不够体谅他。 他每天早午晚归，我却在这里跟他说我有可能会爱上别人。我真的是这样的人吗？很想哭。你是我男朋友啊。怎么可以伤我这么深？我不知道你何时才会珍惜我，但我已经尽力去珍惜你的纯在。我不要求你每天都陪我。我不要求你把时间给我。但最简单的简讯你都没办法传，那我们的爱该怎么维持呢？我很迷茫，明明知道是自己的错但却在这里推卸责任，真可悲。

爱说真的是什么呢？这问题真的考倒我了。或许我一辈子都不会知道答案。现在应该想想如何跟他道歉。毕竟我是整个事件的幕后黑手。

我要抗议! 已经一个多星期，亲爱的男朋友都没约我出去哦。 真是的。 今天kuan hon 让我差点就爱上他。 我没对nigel不忠，现阶段还处于欣赏，但以后会不会有进一步的发展就是未知数。 好啦。别吓你们。我要声明，我是一个非常死心踏地的女人，绝对不会一脚踏两船的。 但nigel 真的很过分哦。 总得给他一点颜色瞧瞧。 呵呵!心里好象快乐一点了。 原规正状， kuan hon 真是绝种的好男人。 要说起他的英勇事迹还真没什么时间。所以我决定会家再继续。 现在就写到这。 家里见!

Replaced my ezlink card and sch matrix card. spend 38.20 in total!.
broke. have to pay phone bill too. arrgh... sian. super sian..

Green, NO DRUG, card holder missing AGAIN



Just realized i have lost my card holder twice in a month!. the previous time was on the 14th june and today, 13th july. NOT even 1 month since i last lost it. This time round was at causeway point. i'm quite certain that it was there but unfortunately, no one return it to any passenger service counter.



Conclusion: Woodlanders are all not helpful.



haiz. shouldn't blame others. i'm at fault. but seriously, after the movie, despicable me, the card just disappear. what the.

super sad luh. i shall wait another day for people to return the card. gonna call up bus transit to terminate that card. 30 dollars gone!.

我很怕。深怕有一天他会离开我。

就说嘛， 新加坡有的是人才，何必用外来人才呢? 。他们来到这里就连最基本的"请排队"都做不到。我们连同基本常识都得教他们， 不觉得浪费我们宝贵的时间吗? 今天早晨， 太阳公公才刚起身不久，我就被一个没排队还为自己编了一个字典这么厚的借口的auntie 训了一顿。

故事是这样的。
168 巴士到了，人们一个接一个的上了巴士。 正当我右脚往前放在第一个梯级时，有一位中年妇女抱着一个小孩没派队的跑到我的身旁上了车。靠，真是没修养不懂的什么叫排队吗?我便好心的跟她说"请你排队" 或许不要脸和不知羞耻都写在她脸上只是我当时没看见。 我只睡了五个小时，这也难怪。原来好心是没好报的，她嗓门可真大，说着"没看到我有小孩吗?带着小孩怎么排队呢? 我喃喃自语"有小孩就不能排队哦?" 虽然是小声点，但我很有信心巴士uncle一定听得非常清楚。就在我希望他挺身而出，英雄救美时，他却不当一回事。我放弃了。了解到人都是自私。auntie 都是罗嗦的，身后又传来卷舌的大桑音"stupid!我看以后 你怎么带小孩排队!" 我放弃了。被一个连英语都不会的人喊stupid真没脸。 算了，当她是勇气可佳掌身鼓励鼓励一下吧。之后我心里又有了一个想法，“要等我有孩子你都不知道死去哪里了”其实我也没那么气。传说中他们就是这等人，能怎么办呢？总不能让一只猪学怎么飞吧。

所以我学会看开。我承认我的脑袋很小，没办法装下这些多余的事。写完之后我就会忘了。希望明天，后天，大后天都 不要发生相同的事。
要睡了，晚安！

在读了LiSiMing 写的博客之后，我有了启发，那就是写华文。 在这里，我要强力的推荐他的博客。除了好笑，好玩，再好笑，我想不到别的词语来形容了。读了他的博客我才了解原来博客也是可以这么样精彩。如果siming看到这篇文章，他会感谢我吗？我不要求礼物；鲍鱼，鱼翅，龙虾，螃蟹就足够满足我了。我要先说一声谢谢。

请大家多多支持www.smartsiming.blogspot.com. 它将会为你无聊的一天带来欢笑和惊喜。

I'm in such a dead shit. Hate tuesday. I'm always late for sch. Should say this is not my fault. 900 bus didn't want to come on time. Just board 168. Hope i'll get to sch on time.

things to do today:
a game of monopoly deal
dinner with phy at some place
do up tissue engineering log book
Revise rtech.

Update Update....

First thing: i have found my cards! call up hougang bus interchange and they had it over there!. went down with my sis and collect it!. hurray. lao tian really is watching over me. hees.

Second thing: Return back to Burberry kids. Was posted to taka. work with Fitri, Christine and Zana. its still okay to work with zana and christine. but not too good with Fitri. She seems to be very fierce.. scary eh. Lots of things happened. All the gossiping and backstabbing... XI GUAN JIU HAO. lols.

Third thing: I am broke! SUPER BROKE.

Forth: On mission to search for SUGAR daddy. hahas. Kidding la. need to pull through this month and everything will be alright next month. (:

FIFTH and the final: I am going on a interview with Biodevises!. i'm trying to prepare for the interview but somehow i still can't seem to figure out how to respond to "Tell me more about yourself".. Oh no. this is the most basic and important question, yet i have problem answering it. i need LAO TIAN to BAO YOU again. lols.

NOT MY DAY

Went out at 4pm to have dinner with Lisa and Charlene. Wanted to catch Super Junior in Changi when they are going back. But somehow SM people damn cunning. They didn't walk through the departure gate. Instead, go through the staff entrance. ARRGH. irritating rights? all the hardcore fans came but went home with NOTHING.

Apart from the disappointment, my card holder went missing. Searched high and low for it but no luck. called T2 and T3 to see if anyone had returned the card holder... No luck. wake up early this morning just to call SBS transit. was hoping i might drop it on 27. No one pick up the call. Left my name and phone number with them. Hoping they'll call.

Called up transitlink to deactivate my card but they ask me to wait awhile cos if i manage to get the card back, they can't re-activate the card. Need to make new card. will wait afew more days. No ezlink card, nowhere to go. Taka staff card and sch matrix card also lost. can't work in taka anymore. gonna work at isetan. i'll miss the Ayam penyet. oh man. i can still think abt food in this stituation.

Another thing. I need my matrix card for exam! and i guess need it to graduate too!. what the. replacement of sch matri card have to pay $50!. arrgh. NO MONEY LE LA. what the hell. burberry pay also not here yet. all the office people super slow!

what should i do now? sit and wait?!just let me get the cards back. PLEASE. 老天保佑

I still couldnt believe i had forced fed a rat! Oh man. I'm so cruel!! Now then i feel the pain. Just now when i was holding her, i swear i didnt feel much. But now, as i'm recalling, everything feels different! Btw, my rat's name is girl girl. And her number is 4. Hahs. Gonna kill or euthanize girl girl next week. Sad. And after that, we'll be getting mice. Another round of torturing. So not going to look forward to next week.

Nigel went dinner with his friends at china town. He asked mi to join, but too inconvenient for me. Tamp to china town.long trip. And also, i stink!! From all the pee and poo from girl girl. Cant face his friends like that. Will see how next week. So hungry now, but no one is eating with me!! Sob. Gonna tabao home.

FLYING SQUID(25/04/10)

Finally got the stupid squid up in the sky!. Tried it twice luh. first was on the 18 and then 25. hahs. quite fun luh. just tat the weather is very HOT. we went in the afternoon. ard 11am. seeing the squid going higher makes all the sweat worth. hahs. gonna go fly kite again this coming sunday. have to complete all the homework before i go.... I hate CSAS 4. so mani things to do just for 2CU!. NOT WORTH.

DIXON( "professional kite flyer" hahas. if there is such thing)

Frameless kite. The ULTIMATE SQUID....

Was trying out with framed kite.

Roller Blades part 2(24/04/10)

Got my blade!. hahas. Purple in colour. hees.
Nigel went with me. he dont seem to like the design but I DONT CARE. hahas.
although come to think of it, 200 bucks for a recreational skate?? isn't it abit tooooooo expensive?? *sshhhhhhh. dont think so much. what is gone is gone. hahs.
Gonna try my best to skate. at least must know T-brake and turn!. (:
Jia you.

Gathering- 17/04/10 (Sidd, Wahid Khan, Rui You, Johnathan AND ME ME ME)

Woke up super early that day.10am. just to meet up with them. Eunice is suppose to come but somehow Rui You( organizer) did not msg her. eh. complicated. anyway, Eunice did not turn up. guess she is still sleeping. hahs. Watched "Kick-ass"! so funny. had a little pop-corn fight with wahid. super childish, but fun. hees. love it!. before the movie, had our lunch at Ashton!.. prime sirloin. medium rare. chewy chewy... SUPER DUPER NICE. Tasty!. hahs. its a short day. the guys have soccer match to go. went home early. hahs.

Left to Right: Sidd, Wahid, Rui You, Johnathan

Roller BLADES(Nigel, my sis, brother and ME)

Its raining heavily today! rain started when we were boarding 961 to queenstown shopping centre. The journey there was tiring. Wanted to sleep, but couldn't. The rain was so heavy that we could even walk to our destination ;5-10mins walking distance. waited awhile, and eventually decide to go interchange to find food. went back and brother bought his roller blades. i choose to wait till i find one that i really love. going to east coast this sat. hopefully there is 1 that can catch my eyes. Had a small bite at Ikea. Meatball super nice!. thumb's up!. after that home sweet home.

I need to buck up my english!. didn't understand his msg and thought he's talking abt his deja vu! so paiseh. this is what happen when a chicken talks to a duck. communication BREAK DOWN. arrgh. hate this so much!. gonna sleep le. work tml!. goodnights.

Crying Awake

Had a nightmare! a super terrible one.
i was crying awake. sob sob, the feeling is so real! and i only realize its a dream when i woke up.!

I was at home. With my boyfriend, someone that i dont recognise. we're kissing on my bed. soon later, the guests start to appear in my house. I guess there is some kind of party going on. I dont know. We got out of my room and sat in the living room. I was playing with his laptop. The laptop is touch screen!. Okay, thats not the point. while playing, i saw Nigel standing at the door. quickly, i pulled my hand away from my boyfriend's. ah hem. in the dream, i've 2 boyfriends. Nigel and that guy. Nigel came in and sat beside me. I feel bad and guilty. I could no longer stand the feeling, i ask Nigel to come with me. That guy followed too. we went to the playground near my house. there, I pulled Nigel to one side and tell him. "Other than you, i've another guy." He laugh, thinking that it was a joke. "I'm serious. Do you trust me?If you dont, we're over." Before he can answer, the guy came in. I told him i want a breakup. without hearing any answer, i walk away in tears. Did i mention they're friends? "Its not worth to sacrifice their friendship just for a girl." thats what i'm thinking at that point. I went up the seesaw, and started crying. I can literatly feel my heart breaking. not that i've lost 2 guys but i've lost him, Nigel. Slowly, i believe in what kk say. It'll be the guy's fault if this relationship dont work out. i guess i've fallen too deep into the trap of love. On the seesaw, i saw Nigel, he look up but did not come up to me. I open my eyes and realize, its all a nightmare. Will it come true? this is what is bothering me now.

31 March

After work went out with Kk and tzeyang.
had a goog time with them. Oh man. I miss the good old times!.
hahs. FUN FUN FUN!

Oh man. I think yang looks super good in blazer and trenchcoat. He has the "business man" looks. hahs. KK dont have that look!. so even if he's carrying LV, ppl will still think its FAKE. hahs.

2nd April

Broke my voicebox. Can't even say hello. lols. spend 40 dollars. doctor gave me amorphil, lozenges, cough syrup and pills for phelgm and swelling. i guess the medicine is not strong enough. After a day still not recovering. will be voiceless for these few days. Wont be working till tues, 6 april. Wanted to go out with hubby on Mon. but didn't know what to do. so haven't ask him out. hahs. I guess i'm too free, had been thinking alot about Nigel and Me. i feel the distance between us. When i'm confused, he don't seem to be able to give the right answer. Likewise, when he's in trouble and need someone to be there, i dont seem to know what he wants, what he need. People say " love can overcome anything" i wonder is that true? Maybe sometimes love is not everything. hahs. KK say i like to complicate stuff. Which is true. VERY true. i love to add 10 problems to that 1 problem which can be solved easily. this is me! hmmm. i believe we belong to the different universe, he's from Mars and i'm from venus!. hahas. Not funny. just feel that there is this super huge gap inbetween us. He seem to be someone who is so high up and i'm just a normal human being. Guess i'm not the right one for him. ):

DRP- differential research programme

its SUPER DUPER boring.

the nano LC(probot) got problem! Pressure got too high during spotting.

Arrgh. there is nothing we can do now. Now i realize, if one day there is no electricity, it'll be the scientist who are doom first. EVERYTHING is about technology. After a day of flushing the system, pressure drop half. However, we still can't run Nano LC. no filter!. stupid la. the filter takes 1-2 months to be delivered. SUAN LE. Teacher-in-charge, helen han li, tell us to do research. its 1pm now. gonna do 4.5hrs of research. i need motivation and guess what i've found.. ENJOY the following video.

By Tiara and Supernova, Time To Love

21 march 2010 is the day!
Used to think alot. hmmm although now too.
for now i should just look straight and see what's infront and not think what will happen.
for as long as i know, i'll follow my feelings. walk with it, trust it.

27/02/2012
KITE FLYING SECTION - Dixon, his mum, his brother( brendan), my sis and I!

had a really got time.
after lunch with Dixon( its his birthday on 26th), we went to the field behind christ church. hees.
oh man!. didn't know its so fun to fly kite.
hahas. hope to enjoy it again. Hopefully with christopher and his family!.
(:

At christopher's house on 26th - Chris and apple jie's family! Nigel Wong, Chris present student and US!

photos took by NIGEL!.

hahs.

went to chris house to bai nian(CNY). he cook so much food! and they're delicious!

Christopher Lim - my swimming teacher 4 years ago. stopped contacting since sec 2.

there are alots of sweet memories!.

hees. miss the good old days.

我想我真的疯了！既然会有想有男朋友的想法。现在还一头栽进去！
不能再想他了！！！

Went jogging this morning. had a bad night. Dad keep scolding us for eat the food that is prepared for new year guest. say that if we open it, the food will go bad. blah blah blah. At that point of time i have so mani OS in me, but no one to hear. suddenly thought that if i have a boyfriend, isn't it good? at least have someone to hear mi. but suan le. lols. i think i'm getting weak. keep having these thoughts.

I guess i've straighten my thoughts in the few mins of run. I, Ho Yin Jie, do not need a man. I'll do everything on my own. and if i need someone to talk to, i'll write it here. (: cheers.

真想快些长大，快找到一个我能真心对待，他也能真心对我的人。嫁出去就算了。或是有能力可以有自己的房子。不想再和会破坏我心情的人住在一起。烦死了。一个神经病的已足还多来一个不会看人脸色的死人。有够气的。突然有种“如果有男朋友，那该多好" 的想法。我真的疯了。没人会愿意听我哭诉，只好来这里发泄。还有三年！我就成为大人了。加油。多三年罢了，我能撑过去的。

There are so mani things i want to post! but i don't seem to have the mood.
right now i needed a friend to talk to but none seems to be here. maybe cos i never tried to find them.
wanted to go clubbing next friday. i've made arrangements this weekend. friday go club,, saturday morning return home. want to catch the first bus. called my supervisor and took leave on sat. Ask fa shang to my house tat sat evening for mahjong. but everything is gone just becos mummy dont want mi to go. complex feelings... Sadness plus disappointed and anger. i'm 18 years old! she can't even let mi stay at chalet and BBQ overnight!. 18 leh. so mani ppl have the experience of clubbing and i got none. i really want to step into 1!. yes, i may not like it, but i want to know what kind of place is that wat.

she really got the ability to mess up my day. i guess i shall just remain my work and study life. no fun...

Christmas song!



Things thats bothering me...
1) No MONEY
2) Never ending Steven Cheng
3) No life.
4) I WANT MY NEW PHONE

hahs!. thats all... (:

我现在有个问题想跟大家分享。

如果有天你妈妈病了，你身上只有一块钱。医生告诉你这一块前或许能救你母亲，你会如何抉择？要知道没了这一块钱你将没办法再生存，你又会如何选则？
A) 救母亲
B) 救自己
C) 同归于尽

不防告诉大家，我会选择C. 让遇到相同困境的人能和家人开开心心活下去。其实之前我会想救自己。但想想还是算了，活得那么辛苦，为何不开开心心的死去呢？

REFRESHED

tagboard is refreshed. Deleted more than 20 tags. Hees.
Had been thinking about how these people polluted the tagboard. this is suppose to be a place for kid. hehs. "kid".

anyway, my saddist mind is bringing mi somewhere else. This morning when i wake up, my brain is full of/ filled with what steven say. disregard him as a friend. i totally agree to it. feel like punching him. its like why should he say such things when he wasn't even suppose to be involved? and why must it be MY tagboard. say it somewhere else luh!. hmmm, untill now i'm still confused. who is hancock, avatar and blah blah blah. irritated. I know this hancock or whatever is a supporter of yang. shan't care abt that guy. he is weird. Back to the punching steven. inorder to satisfy my needs, i've imagined a new arcade machine. Its super high-tech. basically a game to be a boxer. When you enter the game zone, you are a boxer. Somehow like wii, but this game involve whole body. facing the screen, you are suppose to hit ur opponent like what they did in real game, untill the guy cannot stand up anymore. All the rules apply. If you are hit by the opponent, there is a immobilization of 0.5 secs. The high-tech system will stop your movement. This means you cannot move, not they cannot sense your attack. Also, VS mode is available.
WHAHAHAHA. its so interesting. lols. sweet dreams like this is always a good start in morning. lols.
its AMIC term test later!! and WHAT AM I DOING?? blogging? suan le. really dont feel like studying. so tired.

Requested by TAGGERS, i shall just write their NAMES.
A- Akmal
B-Wei Yang
C- Wai Eng
D- Yin Jie
E- Charlene.

I shall apologise for B and C cos their relationship should be enclosed. BUT taggers had ask mi to write their names. So too bad.
And also..

TO BLOG TAGGER, THERE IS NOTHING TO HIDE. YOU CAN JUST TAG WITH YOUR NAME.

It all started

Characters involved :
A (bestfriend of B)
B (goodfriend of A)
C (Ex-galfriend of B)
D (friend of E)
E (friend of D)

Episode 1 - During Mbio lab

Everyone is chatting around waiting for the eletrophoresis process to end. D, E and some other friends helping to do some design work. finally, Richard( lecture's name), called the whole class to gather around a UV emitting machine. He said we must take picture of the bands so we can do the lab report after all these practical sections. he switched off the lights and people started to crowd around the machine. Person A finish taking the picture and stand around the machine chatting. As teacher say UV will cause lots of damaged to the DNA, we need to work quickly. so D decided to ask A to move away. Her tone wasn't nice, infact, it was harsh. She said : "A, if you have finish taking the photo can u move away so the others can take?" person A moved however, he wasn't happy abt it. He kept in his heart.

We continued with the practical. at 1 point of the practical, we are suppose to centrifudged all the tubes. It has been a long time since everyone has placed the centrifudged tubes in the centrifudge machine. Person A volunteer to help the class do centrifudgation, however, he just stood there waiting. D saw it and wasn't sure what A was doing. So D went up to A, asking what is A waiting for. A replied, "i'm waiting for him." Pointing to Richard. D was puzzled. Richard is busy doing the agarose gel, if he were to wait for him, we shall never complete our centrifugation. So D told A to start as richard is busy. A is not convinced, so he ask Richard "can we start the centrifugation?" and Richard replied Yes. Not knowing how long to centrifugde, A ask D. D went to read the protocol and it says 1 min. Thinking that its 1 min, D went back to tell A. There are witness around and supported the idea of 1 min. A press the start button, while D went to her bench.

After awhile, D heard A shouting. saying "D, its all because of you that delayed the whole class.Ask you to wait u say start start. it's 10mins NOT 1 min." Thinking that A is just playing around, D went to him and say : "protocol says 1 min. you can choose not to believe. " not losing out, A replied "Why you never listen to what teacher say?!" D is boiling inside and she said " I didn't listen? YOU ALSO NEVER LISTEN. if u did, you won't even need to ask mi. " after saying that, D was pulled away by her friends.

This tension stretched to the next day. A didn't come to sch. D was still curious why A is so hot tempered. She went up to B and from B, she knows that A is still angry over what D had told her to move away. D realized that her tone wasn't good. Also, D discovered a second scorce that cause A to explode. through these 2 years together, A seldom get upsad that easily. And what makes him explode is because his reputation and image infront of lecturer is lost. D did some thinking and agree to it. A is always circulating a lecturer, acting as if he is a very good student. In short, D call it boot-licker.

First Episode shall end here...

Second Episode - Amic Assay

D,E and other friends are a group, while A,B,C, together with other ppl are a grp. During Amic tutorial, 2 weeks before submission, teacher ask the class to split into groups of 5. every group should do different topic. knowing what to do, E's group told the class they are doing on "DENGUE". while A's grp decide to do water borne pathogen. Satisfied, the class dispersed. Submission of the Assay is just 1 week later, E decided to discuss it during lecture. C,D,E are chatting. so E ask C, "what is your grp doing for the assay?" C replied "we doing Dengue". BOMB EXPLODED. this time round is 2 bombs. E and D expressed their unhappiness and tell C's grp off. C knew that E's grp choose dengue first so C scolded A and B. A and B very unhappy. so they didn't talk to C and ignore C for the whole day. E and D also decide to change their topic. they were furious but to think far, they change the topic and let A,B and C have "dengue".

On Monday, 30-11-09

Submission date of Amic Assay. During pratical lesson, A and B gave black face throughout the lab. They did not talk to anyone who was once in his clique. Both of them just went away like nobody's business. D and E still finds it ridiculous. "How come they are angry? We should be the one who is angry. They steal our topic and still dare to show us black face?" And Soon, D and E feels that A and B is angry at C for scolding them.

however, that isn't true. Following day, Tuesday, A,B and C starting talking. But A and B still refuse to talk to the others, ppl who are in the clique. C, as a mediator, told E and D that A and B is not talking to them becos they are angry at them. Feeling weirder, E and D didn't know what they do that makes them angry. They also never clear up the doubts becos it isn't fair at all. At least, this is what D thinks. They drifted away just like this and they expect E and D to go up to them.

Episode ends.....

Episode 3. new character, WeiHao- 02/12/09

its wei hao's birthday and we're having 4 hrs break!. A was arranged to meet his care-person so the rest waited for him in the library. mean-while, E went to print her designs. after more than 15mins, A and B is still not done. C said "i've recieved a msg from B and he ask us to go ahead first. they'll catch up with us." Happily, they went to KFC near interchange. A and B still didn't turn up even everyone has finish their meals. C recieved a msg from B and it says, "i'm very disappointed with you. you did not wait for us. i expected u to wait. and u left. i dont care abt anything, i'm only concerned if u wait for us. Another thing is you lie to me. You say u are at the bus-stop opposite KFC. We are here and you say you all are at interchange." NOTE. Us refers to A and B. and this is not the exact SMS, meaning close to. As this msg is read out, the grp is very disappointed. it's Weihao's birthday! as a friend they should have appear no matter what happen but becos of C not waiting for them and the typo error in msg, they fail to celebrate weihao's birthday. This also shows how important C is to B. All B can think is C. To them, wei hao is no one. This may be not true but evidence proved this. They have failed to do the basic of being a friend.

In lectures, A and B did not sit with the grp.

Episode 4 ends.

Episode 5, MSN CHAT on the same day, 2/12/09

At night, B communicated with D and E on msn. He apologised first, in which D and E still can't figured out why. He told D and E that he and A is very angry that they talk bad abt them behind their back. D and E asked what they say. And to their surprise, B say he can't rmb. "Too many times alrdy, i can't rmb." D replied "so you are angry with something you've forgotten?" B tries to denie it and eventually ask D and E to forget about everything that has happen and be friends again. E closed the conversation once she saw that sentence. She never reply. However, D replied. She wanna know what B had heard from them. Forced and finally he said. "A told mi that u all say i angry over small things. U are not there i think. and i told A you all say he suck up to lecturer." D and E has been on another conversation telling each other what B is telling them. After E knew abt it, E said: "i've regreted not to say it directly to them." D replied B, asking if what he wanted D and E to say his bad points directly to his face. B replied with "we're in the same clique, why backstab ppl who are in the same clique?" D ask him "so u think we're in the same clique." B is simple minded. he mistook the meaning and felt silent as he thought D and E never took him as friend in this big grp. What D wanted to express is this: " If you think we are in the same grp, why did u drift away just like that. Are we nothing to u? Are we just a saving boat to you? when u need us, we are here. And when you dont, you treat us this way. You call urself part of this clique?" In the end, B still didn't reply the question on whether he want D and E to say all that directly to him or to say it behind his back. E say no point talking to him that much. just tell him "When your friend has problems, they go to friends. Just happen that you are the problem and there is no way we can approached you becos you can never take fact. This is why we turn to the others." and Finally B replies :"we just dont want ppl to talk behind our back." He never dares to face the fact.

End of Episode 5......

More episodes are on their way!..

D- Yinjie

yes, everyone, D is ME!. i've so much to say. i was so angry yesterday night when he say all that to me!. when someone backstab you, he/she wants others to hate you. We merely talk abt you and A when you 2 did something very annoying. Shouting at mi during practical lesson becos his plan of boot-licking fails? what is this?! And ALSO, if you never do anything wrong, why are u so affected by our words? are u angry becos its all fake? or are u angry becos u think you have no flaws and now ppl see all ur flaws? U WANT to control our mouth, BUT U CAN'T. and also, CAN YOU SWEAR that u never mention us in any of ur conversation with ur friends? U CALL THIS BACKSTABBING? use words that you know the full meaning of please!.

Phew. this is so exciting. most exciting year in poly.

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Dolphin Slaughter



I didn't know how bad it is untill i saw this.
What has the world becoming to be? U call all these humans? i can hardly believe my eyes. Couldn't believe how they can hide their conscious. it pains mi to see these lovely creature got slaughtered.
What harm did they do to us? Why these ppl have to do this!
Now i hope 2012 is true. to get all these ppl out of this world, even if it takes to sacrifice some good ppl.